Our Sea' - for my sister My headphones go in - to escape - This racket in my mind, that storms and boils a sea of thought where no way out I find. In the past I felt as if my lungs had filled, weighed down. My vision blurred, my heart lost hope, as I began to drown. But somehow every time I neared the bed of this deep sea, you would come - my little sister - Come and rescue me. Thankfully this roaring ocean for me did calm, did sleep. I felt so free, a warmth inside And sailed above the Deep. But you , my little sister, amidst my calming height, found a darker, rougher sea of your own to fight. I want to come and pull you out this darkness, great and vast. But I don't know how you did cope to save me from the last. I feel that you are disappearing, drowning in that Blue. All I crave is my old boat. Then I can sail to you. Where do I start without a boat To guide us to the Calm? When all I think is that this storm draws waves across your arm. All I know's a certain truth - that I will search Our Sea, until I find my little sister And help her to sail free.

Just listening, not thinking I watch your promises set in the horizon It has been too long a day to have our own thoughts Amidst a confusing fog of colour Which opens windows and stretches necks So many admire what you have taught They think this is a sunrise. You have your audience fooled. But I can trace my finger across these coloured strips and maybe, just maybe trace an escape

Crying softly in the dark You think I can't hear the tears you hide Who would think a grandma cried? But with a mournful shot, a reminding hark I hear you crying in the dark There is an emptiness which haunts in sleep the memories which you do keep As you know one day they'll dampen your spark and leave you crying in the dark You feel as though time snatched your years Through your fingers it fell as tears So many coulds and woulds and mights Followed by shant and cant and fights your mind screams yes, your body croaks no So in frustration you just let go So now apart from the #life you know You sit and cry silently out of show But I promise you grandma that once you're gone With a new lease of #life, in me you'll live on.

A jumble of relief I'm lying on this bed of clouds Above a world of worry I have fallen asleep Let the humming of today and the silence of tomorrow carry me through the night Come lie with me Slip into this dream And let's forget the rest

Dear mum Sometimes I forget I'm sorry that I do That I should sometimes say out loud that I love you You bought my soul a body You gave me something too A part of you to carry round, so I love you And now these thoughts remind me Like drops of heaven do, That I should always, come what may, give love and thanks to you You may not ask to hear it As it is nothing new But mum, You are my truest friend And I'll always love you.