Anxiety Is Anxiety is The feeling when you're heart feels like its coming out of your chest Anxiety is The longing hours of agony Anxiety is A volcano that's ready to erupt Anxiety is The fear that is the fuel and it burts into flames Anxiety is When your heart sinks into you Anxiety is Feeling like your head is clouded by dust Anxiety is Uncontrolablly trembling hands Anxiety is Eating me alive on the inside Anxiety is The fear of feeling like your dying Anxiety is Making a home out of me Anxiety is Never going to go away. It's always going to be with me for the rest of my #life so i might as well learn to live with it. #anxiety

I Killed Her I killed a girl today The girl that I fought with for years The person looking back at me in the mirror That girl would fill my head up with lies Telling me that I'm never going to be good enough That girl would bring me so far down into the deepest darkest parts of the ocean While I tried so many times to swim up to the shore the waves would keep me under I killed the negativity that girl was causing I told her I had enough So one stormy night I decided to drown her and her negativity As I drowned her I saw the malevolence in her eyes die I shouted at her that she's not welcome here anymore I fought with that girl for years So I decided to kill her She can no longer drag me down anymore For I am a better person now who loves herself unconditionally Who puts herself first for once in her #life I killed the girl in my mind To the girl that told me I will never be good enough That I'd never amount to anything She didn't know what I was capable of I was capable of finally learning to love myself I killed the side of that girl that didn't know how to love herself For now I am a new woman who's capable of loving herself.

An Apology Letter To Myself Dear self, I am so sorry for hating you for so many years For letting other people define my self worth instead of just believing in myself I'm sorry for putting you through so much pain I never meant to hurt you so much I'm sorry for not seeing how beautiful you truly are For letting those hurtful things people would say to me get to me I'm sorry for being so hard on you for so many years I should have been gentle with you and took care of you You needed me and I let you down for years I never meant to let you down for so many years I'm sorry for letting my insecurities get the best of me But here's to the nights I spent crying in my bedroom in pain Here's to the trials and tribulations I've gone through Here's to the days I spent questioning my own existence I deserve to love myself and have self confidence My body and soul deserve to be loved So here's to my body and soul Here's to the next chapters in my #life Finally learning to love myself with my flaws and imperfections I owe you an apology for hating you for so long So here is my sincere apologies. -Love, Me

Farewell My Love As I watch you walk away with my hopes and dreams, I watch as inside of me starts to crumble down, As tears start to stream down my face while my heart is breaking into bits and pieces of shattered glass, When my mind is racing 100 mph on overdrive, Asking myself why you gave up on our love?, I watched you the first time when you left, I never thought you'd come back but to only give up on our love again, I let you back in, Shame on me for letting you fool me twice, Sometimes when I'm outside late at night watching the stars as they shine so bright I ask myself why wasn't I good enough?, When you left you took everything from me, I gave you my heart, mind, body, and soul just to have you stab me in the heart again with a spear, Memories replay in my head, I know that it's over between us, I will no longer be able to kiss your pale pink lips, I will no longer be able to interwind my hand with your hand, I won't be able to call you mine anymore, I'm not going to be able to wake up next to you, I'm not going to be able to touch your pale silky body, I won't be able to look into your eyes and see the constellations align, Everything I've ever wanted was in you, My heart is aching for you, I can't bring myself to delete old messages, I can't bring myself to delete pictures of our love, Our love was suppose to be everlasting, I'm haunted by the memories of you and what we use to be, Constantly trying to pick the pieces of my heart and glue them back together again, So I guess this is farewell my love.

Love Yourself There have been so many days and nights where I can't stand myself anymore, I just want to crawl out of my skin, Though I owe myself an apology, For hating myself for so long, My body and soul deserve to be loved, So here's to my body and soul, Here's to the next chapters in my #life, Finally learning to love myself with my flaws and all.