My #life As I sit back and let the world go by, It's only then that I realise, With no purpose for my #life, I ain't gonna win no prize, 18 years of feeling stigmatised, A long painful time there was a battle I fought, Choosing to inflict physical pain to rid of the emotional strain, It did nothing at all, nothing was gained, But I'm sinking lower and lower, As I lose my defences that can't be regained, Its making me weaker and weaker, I've not got long, Till I'll no longer be strong, Enough to fight a battle that I wish to be gone, But soon my will power to express this will go, Similar to when I cut my blood flow, I maybe here breathing and moving, But my heart has stopped reproducing, After the numerous times people tried to seduce it,

Untitled I would tell you that I'd be there, That the way the world treats you is so unfair, But that's not for me to judge, I lost that right when you pulled the plug, As hard as it's been I still give a fuck, Wishing on something that was never meant to be, Missing something that you'd never believe, I guess he must be relieved, That I'm not about to disappoint he, Would deny it but oh god please, Don't lie to me, I hate that you're hurting, Your face looks silent but your words have not been deserted, I'm trying so hard not to curse this, I hold back my words, But their at the tip of my tongue, But I won't let you see, Nor will I plea, When I'd just be a burden, Like a pimple that nobody wants, I hope and pray that you find your happiness, Never once want to see you act this way, You'll get the happy ending that you're searching for, With that special someone that was always meant to be yours,

This Is Me Letting Go I take my hand, I'll do all that I can, To set you free, You're an angel waiting to be, With the last brush of our finger tips, The words at the tip of my lips, Dreaming of the untold kiss, That's to never have another repeat, I guess I'll have to tell my heart to take another seat, For it'll be awhile till I'll have another beat, The touch of our skin, Reminds me of the happiness you use to bring, The tears are starting to sting, As we say our last goodbye, This is me letting go, Once you're gone, you're never coming back, I'm too exhausted for combat, I'm not going to force you to come back, Saying I'll be fine, but it's the truth that I lack, Without you there, I don't know how ill fair, You were the wind in my air, You were the only one I ever cared for, I'm just scared, Of never being whole again, But this is me letting go, Back down to the country below, I'll miss you more than I've ever hoped, But this is me letting you go

Endings It wasn't meant to end like this, Those harsh words that made my heart twist, If you thought I could move on from this, Then you didn't know me at all, I'll never meet another, Who'll even match up to you, Do you not have any clue, I'd rather be on my own forever if I'm to be without you,

Love Lesson Just want to be wanted, Need to be needed, How could I not see this, It makes me so sick, To think what you did, Promises to not hurt me, Swears he only cares for me, Says he's really wants this too, Might as well be eating out the loo, For that was all just bullshit, Just games to get what you wanted, Twisted words to get me lost in, A made up world, A twisted tale, Of the painting you created, Making out that you loved me, In a place of vulnerability, A being made up of fragile pieces, They take advantage, This wasn't to last was it, Giving all men an unfair rep, From one bad decision to another, I now start to think like my mother, I shall stop, I shall hold back, Won't give them a chance to fuck us about, like the past fuck ups, Holding back my story, For the guy that makes my Prince Charming,