Ptsd And Hope I've had a little secret I've held for many years, That secret that wasn't mine at all, Was kept in pure fear, Suppressing down emotions I wasn't allowed to show, Was told if I told anyone they'd turn their backs and go. For years I faced his torture played his little game, Keeping quiet with a tool of fear, embarrassment and shame, I was just a little baby of five or six years old, Parents too busy squabbling to see events unfold. My body did what it did best and protected Me till now, Apparently I'm ready to understand I'm still learning stuff some how. Discovering what happened it's like I'm really there, Hating myself all over again relearning #lifes self care. Some days I face are really good I cope with stuff so well Other days I'm five again and rediscovering hell What he did to me was wrong I know with abuse that goes unsaid today a victim and that's not nice but one day a survivor instead.

Moon Tell me#moonin all your glory, Is heaven real or just a story? I've been told since I was a little girl, Good people go to heaven and bad go to hell, What if someone I love did a bad thing, Will they not see heaven angels sing? I sat in silence with a#moonmade of stone he spoke; "This after#life your looking to seek, is it for your reassurance that the end won't be as bleak? is it fear that science is that black and white when your dead thats it and no spirit will take flight?. What ever your thoughts please know your not alone, embrace your time on earth, live it, love it and have fun" Wise words from a light that shines through the dark although this I already knew, Keeping secrets of an after#life so close to your chest I still still don't know what to think for the best I will continue to pick good over bad, Spend time with friends that make me happy not sad. Allow that secret for me to discover on my dying day, Try not to listen to hard to what others may say.

Cursed Stain Listen to these lips of red I have knowledge of past words said Promptly action what I tell So I can tap and cast my spell Take your mouth and place it there I will watch and simply stare Cast a spell of crystal meth Kissing you, the kiss of death

Hello Again To One And All Hello world of opuss Ive been away for a long ole time, thought I'd reinstal the app for a little nosy and poetic stimulation Ive been on a massive long ole jorney in the last year. Which I may or may not put into words at some stage.. #life is now good and Ive a future which wasnt the case the end of last year Onwards and upwards. I do hope everyone is well it will be nice to hear from you all old residents and new. Terri xx

Bad People Those eyes those eyes, Burning into me Those eyes you stare transfixed you don't care My hair it's mine please don't touch it Blonde curls, blue eyes unfortunate We were playing nice games yet your eyes have changed Please don't touch my skin my skin belongs to me You've lost your smile on your face just eyes there staring whilst your touching my hair in a silly way Making it tickle but I don't like this tickle. I prefer my daddy's tickle his are fun You smell funny tea and smoke and damp like it's been raining I don't like that smell its yuck If I don't look at you and just play you will be better in a minute Please don't kiss me my lips belong to me Your lips are big and spiky and they scratch me I'm going somewhere else to play #ptsd #flashback