Tian My heart awakens with a sound so clear Your voice like music resounding in my ears It's like I've heard nothing for ten thousand years What's taken so long to find you my dear? It's like a death came over, but it's all I've known You see through me and you call me home Finally awake, forgotten past unknown Babe I need you, never let me go And now I can touch you Exhausted I breathe you in And girl when I see you, I am Lovestruck again Cause I am wholly yours I have thrown away my pride In your love I will abide ... My bride From deep slumber to love awaken Girl hear my voice, A song from my lips, There are no others, they're all forsaken When I'm with you #life is pure bliss I've missed you so but we've never met Your eyes are piercing right when they set I've jumped right into this with no regret

My Vows When I first layer eyes on you, I knew I wanted you. When we first kissed I knew I needed you. And when I gave you this ring I knew God meant for our paths to cross and for us to have a beautifully imperfect, everlasting love. One that will live on as a breathing example of God's perfect love and grace for us. Because God is Love. And when I practice my love for you in courtship, I know that God is pleased, you are happy, and I am filled with purpose. A purpose with steps guided and planned out by Jesus and fueled by your love for me. God created Eve from Adams rib. A helper made from the side so that she would be seen as equal yet the rib is under the arm to symbolize protection. I love you Tian. I'll never forget the day we met. It was April 6th at church. I remember that first initial introduction and you touched my hand. I was captured by how stunning and beautiful you looked. And I watched you from behind the piano on stage to see if you had a heart for the Lord. I had seen enough. All my boxes were checked. I remember when I asked you to be my girlfriend. It was May 12th. I called my mom the very next morning and told her that I knew you were the one for me. I knew we would be married and now look at us. Surrounded by friends and family that support us. I was telling my dad earlier that this is the best day of my #life. And I've been waiting and praying for you for as long as I can remember. I promise to always love you, all the days of our lives. Remember that just because we fight- that never changes. I promise to be a good provider and to never become lazy or idle. I am a man of faith. And the Lord has always been good to me. (Proverbs 18:22 says) He who finds a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord. (‭Proverbs‬ ‭18‬:‭22‬ ESV) I know He will bless us for obeying His word. I promise to take care of you and cook your favorite meal every once and a while. I promise to make time every week to focus on you and also plan a vacation every now and then. I promise to celebrate your victories and support you. And I promise to wipe away your tears when you fail. But most of all, I promise to keep my walk with God strong. I believe a righteous man makes the best husband. Having every piece of the fruit of the Spirit. I will lead our house spiritually. I will pray for us constantly. And I will love you like Christ loved the church. I love you Tian, 3/21/2015 ❤️

Breaking The Legs Of Sheep The Bible says that God's children are like sheep. Should we be offended? Sheep are kinda stupid. They panic in times of crisis, the constantly wander off, and if they're left on their back, they cannot get up so they eventually die. What the heck God, seriously? First you say we were made in your image and now we are helpless sheep. I had to look into this odd description of God's children. If a shepherd has a persistently wandering lamb, he will break one of the lambs legs. With a broken leg, the sheep is carried everywhere with the shepherd. The bond between the shepherd and the lamb becomes so great that the sheep never leaves the shepherd's side again. Better to have a temporarily broken leg than leave the safety of sheep herder to be devoured by wolves. The same goes for Christians. Sometimes God needs to separate us from our sinful wandering. It might hurt to separate from something harmful or outside of God's plan, like a relationship for example. People often say that, hindsight being 20/20, that breakup was for the best. So if you're going through a some spiritual discipline, just know that even though it hurts, it is saving you from something much worse. Thank God for a Shepherd like Jesus.

#life Without Dad Dad When I was a small boy, I loved you dad As far back as the age of zero My blonde hair and blue eyes matched yours My father was my hero We went fishing and loved to hike As far back as I can remember We spent those days watching sports Like football in September Someday I know that day will come When you'll be put to rest I dread the time without you Alone I'll live #life to the fullest I remember way back when When I just a teen I received the "talk" about girls I was so young and green And when I broke up with my love You knew just what to say I couldn't help but laugh it off I knew I'd be okay Someday I know that day will come When you'll be put to rest I dread the time without you dad I swear I'll do my best I finally achieved my dream Receiving my bachelors degree I can't believe i made it out I know you're proud of me I'm a young man now and I'm telling you I swear she is the one I know that you're proud of me Your dream is almost won But now that day has finally come Where you are put to rest You can't go! I still need you dad My heart breaks inside my chest I'm married now but I still don't know I think that we might not survive I wish you were here, I have so many questions If only you were alive Well she left me now and I'm not sure If my boy wants to also run I think that, dad, he might be like Your blonde hair blue eyed son There's so much that you have missed If only you were here It's hard to know what you would do I see you in the mirror The days are here when I need you most Its like #life's hardest test Things would be better if you were here But you have been put to rest

The Loud Sound of Silence When you hear a big, booming noise, that piercing high pitch tune rings in your ear shortly after. Doctors say that the sound never really goes away. After a while you just get used to it and soon you cannot tell that it hurt in the first place. The same idea mirrors death. You never really get over it. Eventually you get used to the pain of losing a loved one. You remain a little tainted but you no longer notice. Goodbye Grandpa. You'll be forever in my heart. 9-5-2012