The Motivation Is Real I've booked a holiday! What? Yes! Shit! 2 weeks in Greece with Chloe, Tom and Adam. Is this going to be okay?! Something tells me spending 2 weeks solid with these weirdos is going to result in some fighting but who cares we have 2 weeks in Greece in July for under £600 not including food and activities but still! I've just got to get into shape, save money and do well in my exams so I don't have to spend the 2 weeks studying. Easy enough, right? I've heard really good comments about the I quit sugar book, it's like an 8 week detox to give up sugar. I've wanted to do something like this for ages and I think after my exams will be the perfect time as I will only have 8 weeks until Easter then. Holy shit time has gone fast. 9 weeks plus the rest of this week and I'll be home for 3 weeks again. I need to make sure when I come back my diet doesn't go down hill. I've been told it's all about what you put into your body not what you do with your body. I went for a run with billy today and I felt like death after one lap! So I need to run most days when I'm back in Bournemouth and I actually think going into uni everyday will be helpful to get a system in place for working out and healthy eating. Plus actually doing work and reading. That reminds me I need to buy my books for next term before it starts so I can get a heads up. Being prepared and all that. Until next time Xoxo A

the first weekend so my last post was quite deep so i thought this one i better cheer up otherwise you might get the wrong impression of me. as i write this its been exactly a week back at uni which has actually been really eventful; I've eaten healthy, read and done my work. until Friday night. i guess i should have expected it with chlo and mo coming down. chlo (chloe) is one of my closest friends, we don't speak all the time but when we do its like no time has passed, mo (Victoria tigermo) is a new friend from the start of last year academically i like her and all but it can feel like shes just using chlo and i. so the night before they arrived erica and emma told us they would be going home that weekend. yes, thats right they were going to go home after not even 5 days at chesil. so rosie and i made a list of 40 things to do over the weekend as we didn't just want to be lazy and do nothing. we chloe and mo finally made it here on the friday night we informed them and the remaining chesil girls of the list and how we had to complete it or at least most of it. GAME ON! the drinking ones were easy as were a few others and we got them done before we even got out. once we were out we knew it was time for number 8, meaves challenge of making out with 10 boys over both nights. rosie recently single would need help but so would the rest of us the most we normally would do it 3 in one night and thats a impressive night out. we got in and it was so easy with chlo as a wingman. we got to 7 before we left the club at 3.30. it felt so good and bad. i wanted more. so Saturday night chloe convinced herself to stay another night so she could help finish the rest of the challenges. we started with number 3, 100 shots in 1hour. cider shots of course. paro by 40 and couldn't do any more at 50. we went out. hannah had to make out with 9 boys to make the challenge, they said it couldn't be done but we did. we all got over 11 and it felt good. it felt slutty. but why, i was only kissing them its not like i was taking any of them home. the first weekend was better than freshers, i felt like myself. i didn't need to worry about the why would you pull that many boys? judgey attitude or the sticking to what others wanted to do. i could do what i wanted. and the weekend wasn't even boring even in the times we would just sit together it wasn't awkward or the same old chat about the same shit. i know this is going to sound terrible but i cant wait for the next weekend alone because its like a weight has been lifted and now put back on. until next time xoxo A

back to bournemouth so today started like any other day; wake up, play on phone, walk Billy (my springer spaniel, he will probably be mentioned in most of my posts) but today was different i knew i had to make my way back to bournemouth for uni, like many other students. i thought i was okay with it, getting to see everyone. its not like i had to make new friends or learn to live without my family i have already spent 3 months doing that. this should be a breeze, right? wrong. okay well its been like 5 hours and i feel like the nervous freshy i was in September, all wide eyed and ready to make the most of time. i keep thinking that maybe everyone decided they hated me over christmas break, maybe they all meet up without me and have a closer bond. maybe i should have texted them all the time? maybe i should have appeared to make more effort? but then at the same time my sassy Blair Waldorf questions why i should care? if they don't like me fuck them! why didn't they make the first move with a text to see how i was? maybe we were all to scared to seem annoying and didn't want to make the first move. i should probably stop being to paranoid. i not sure where it comes from but i feel like everyone has an inner paranoid self. i just feel like because im always the stronger friend emotionally and don't tend to show many feelings i cant make people aware of how i feel when my paranoid self comes more forward. anyway i thought i should share my success with you all. i read a book, well i finished a book (bare in mind i had only read 8 chapters of this book pre 2015). i got completely obsessed with the maze runner and it literally only took me 3 days to read the remaining 54 chapters which for me i found impressive. im about to start on we were liars which i read parts of from ibooks sample but i got the real thing for christmas so im excited to start. until next time xoxo A

hello all hi, im allanah and i this is my blog. in here i plan to write at least once a week, i want to share with you all my year and possibly more. at the moment its the new year and the hype of new years resolutions is still in the air. i think this would be the perfect moment to share my resolutions; first is to get fit and healthy (i will go into more detail for all later); second is top do better at uni and finally to write and read more. easy right? well its easy enough to say what i want to do with the year but i guess we will see in a couple months. i was told the key for success is to have motivation behind each goal, being a business student i am also aware that i should make each goal SMART. so here we go: 1. fit and healthy. Basically my friends and i are going on holiday in about 6 months and i want to be in the best shape possible for it so i can post 68526382 photos and not feel self conscious about my body. in this i also want to be healthier, so eating cleaner and exercising more. im also planning on cutting down on drinking which being its day 2 of dry January and i already want a glass of wine this is just going to get harder when i go back to uni. 2. to improve at uni. i guess my placement year can be the only motivation for this but i just need to sit down and take it seriously. this is all down to me now. 3. read and write. well i have about 4 books i want to read i just need to get a plan as to when i read and make it a weekly thing. same goes for writing, ive aways loved to write but i struggle to organise myself to write and then i produce work that isn't that great. i hope i stick to these and you stick to yours. here we go! XOXO A