1899-12-30 0360 36am is when i got the call i knew right away when you said its Bob mc Mr.B, I hung up the phone hysterically, You were my mentor my idol the reason i picked up the pen n pad to write when I'm confused, happy or mad, at least i still have your voice slaying the beat lyrically on the track insanely concord rap in every way had a new song every day it was crazy the fucking beast you were n still are to me truly it was you n me against everybody i cant believe your gone, a perfect soul to waist if i could somehow i would chase after you bring you back home tell the grim reaper to leave you the fuck alone, the only person i could trust n trusted me how could you pull the fucking plug on your own fucking son, my best friend ride or die till the motherfucking end there was a chance he could of awoken from the comma he got from the fucking cowards who beat him in the shop he happen to walk into as they were sticking it up " WTF " why wouldn't they let him run let him live for his wife n kids who depend on him ahhhhhh!!!!!! Where was I!!! Where was I!!!, I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me most if i was there it would of gone down differently becausee it would of been me taking the beating ending up with the comma and you would still be alive today with you beautiful family, i think about that shit fucking constantly I wish I could give you my #life, save you like you saved me when i needed to be, i fucking miss you n everything we used to do, if only the world got to know you there isnt a day that goes by I don't look up into the sky say hi every morning n goodnight every time before i go to sleep end my day with rest in peace homie

Once Again once again i find myself escaping death, never truly will know when ill be taking my final steps, how many times till i realize once again i find myself escaping death, never truly will know when ill be taking my final steps, how many times till i realize n face it embrace just maybe this hospital bed is the last fucking place i want to be pronounced dead, to me #life is what you make of it n i ain't doing shit, so death is cracking the whip trying to exterminate my meaning less existence, Almost takin away in a motor vehicle crash, accident whatever you want to call it, I don't know your name or who you are but i owe you my #life n i don't know how to ever repay you for your actions that night ill start by saying thanks for calling for help caring for someone who isn't your own, thanks for being my hero for that ill never let it go or fade away from my memory ,goes to show good souls do live in an world that turned to shit, thanks for saving me from dying miserable, All started on the way back home from toco bell, diving like a crazy lady scaring the fuck out of me i guess you felt the urge to race against nobody also texting away bitch what the fuck were you thinking that day, putting my #life in harms way. Why didn't you slow down when i said theres a fucking dead end ahead, trying to grab something to brace for whats coming my way fucking whip lash destroying my lower back while you got away with nothing but a fucking scratch I'm going to die was the only thought in my mind as we were fucking flying over street n directly across from a park my heart slowed down every second we were off the ground, i remember landing n smacking two trees gravity tossing me sporadically from the front to the back seat sending with me smashing violently into the windshield that should of killed me, when the spinning stop i quickly hopped out smoke all around couldnt hear a motherfucking sound till i heard " omg are you okay don't worry help is on its way " fell to my knees to much pain to stand on my feet soon as i blacked out. The diver screamed " they need to fucking hurry ", as she was cradling me afraid i would be fucking mhistory its going to take a motherfucking army to demolish me! not this car hitting these two fucking trees I Have no religious beliefs but i know it took more than just me to come back n breath open my eyes to see all my family n friends surrounding me sticking by my side like always till the day i finally die

Maybe Today Or Tomorrow Maybe not today or tomorrow, but Someday, one day we will meet again friends at first lovers till the end. i never felt so close to another's soul, puppy love I'm told, fuck that I'm too old for that shit first time i looked at female n didn't see a bitch i saw a beautiful, hazel eyed tan skin woman, couldn't hold my tongue back took the risk that your boyfriend might kick my ass or try at least, it needed to be released or it would of just kept playing in my head so i walked up to you n i said" i don't care if you man beats me till I'm dead but look your perfect in every way please let me take you out show you what #life is all about " just as she started walking away she turned around n began to say Maybe not today or tomorrow but someday, one dayy we will meet again friends at first lovers till the end, We randomly ran into each other on the street you were the first to say hi i was so fucking surprised, we started to walk n talk around the trails all over the park till it was dark, connected all night underneath the dim mood setting lights, the love it felt like a disease taking over me completely from head to feet like we were fucking meant to be, but it was getting late n just before you leave you whisper to me Maybe not today or tomorrow but someday, one day we will meet again, friends at first lovers till the end I had to leave back to Jersey summer was over so was my Fantasy of you n me i had to realize what would she what with a guy like me a fucking loser n always will be, fuck it I'm used to being lonely feeling like nobody is placed on this earth for me, its like I'm slipping away into a state i cant escape pulling me down beneath the ground for the longest time now when i was wit you that feeling evaporated as we escalated, knew not to get my hopes up, fuck it i give in to the #depression n snap because love will never attach to me Mentally or physically so when I first got home i walked into my bathroom wanting to end my #life i look down pressed the blade Firmly Acrosss my wrist ready to slit n I don't believee what I see its enough for me to throw the knife a way n live for another day because she written on me in black sharpie Maybe not today or tomorrow but someday, one day we will meet again, friends at first lovers till the end