I Miss You Do you miss me, love? Do you miss my every touch? Or is it just me?

To love They said love is a strong affection It was based on a natural selection But, some also said it's a choice The one that give us joys. There are tons of kinds of love But what I'll talk is the one that I have. It's not only the feeling but the person himself, The guy in the picture I kept in my shelf. When he wasn't yet in my #life, I'm fine. I've experienced 'love', I thought shine I don't care of anything else but just me Well, I just wanted to be young and free. The moment I met him, it all changed Not my #life but I was added with page. It was incredible staring into his eyes The kind of feeling when you're lost and mesmerized I wasn't saying that he changed my #life Actually, I'm still the old me but with a little spice He just taught me something that I long have been questioning And that is to love with unconditional feeling. He's the person who taught me to care To love without boundaries and to share He's the one who taught me to handle #life To never give up even until I die. When I was down, he lifted me up Even though it's sarcastic but it made me stop. He don't have this sugar coated words in advices But the bittersweet reality of what #life is. He's the one who doesn't hug you with his arms Instead with intelligent words and a hand Although he's the one who steal smooch kisses With every beat of his heart and with every pieces. He's the guy that doesn't compliment how you look Instead give overwhelming critiques, that makes you shook However I know this guy loves me the way I am Even if he's not looking, covering his eyes with his palm He is that guy that will always listen To every bit of your drama and all your hard feelings Yet sometimes he usually forgets But that doesn't stop me from telling him, no regrets. I love him no matter what happens He's the only guy I will be keeping Even though sometimes it hurts to be with him too But losing him will be the most painful thing, it's true. You see, if we decide to love, We are prepared to be hurt, with guidance from above No matter how we look at it It's the reality, that's it As for me, I was not really expecting things I just wanted to know what are real feelings And I started to open my eyes, as I fall for this person I just did, without clear reasons. I don't know what makes me love him Maybe because of the things the way it seems Maybe because we're meant to be? Or he's the reason now my heart can see. When I met him, he changed my meaning of love It is not really finding your better half But the feeling of selfless affection And selfless attention It is when you start to care to someone It is when you wanted to help anyone It is when your heart sees the person, And starts to love with no condition. That is why I will forever treasure His love and care with no measure Our infinity that still continues Our shares of heartaches, love, red and blues Because of Him, I didn't only know The meaning of true love and what it does to you But the unconditional and selfless love That is a blessing from up above.

Leilani Here's a story of a young girl Who took the wrong turn With just an event of mishap, It brought her normal #life to a stop She was once a pretty gal In her school, was the fairest of all Though she's kind of a taciturn, She's a jaw-dropper with every turn As a young girl, she started to fall in love Wanting to find a better half She met this guy named John, Didn't know he just used her for fun By doing this fun they created something That thing you can't expect in a fling She was shocked, sad and worried Didn't know what to do, she felt stupid. She cried every night thinking what to do. This made her sick, she has the flu But she stood still to save someone inside her Decided to keep it and be a great mother She went to her 'rents to tell them about it Thinking they will accept her, do something about it. She was then kicked and forced to leave. She has no place to go, she then started to weep. She decided to go to John. Thinking she'd be accepted in return John just laughed and told her this, Those word lingers in her head with a hiss "I will let you stay in one condition, You must agree to have an abortion. Kill that thing inside of you, Or else I will ruin your #life, let all people hate you" By hearing this, she was confused What will she do? She looked bemused. She looked at John who talked so steep, With great hesitation, she then agreed. She collected the infant in a Jar The great regret in her will forever be a scar She hugged the jar while weeping out loud. "I'm sorry if I can't be so proud" Days past by and she still weeps John was pissed and will stop the creep She saw John grabbed the jar That night, who walked straight far. Outside the dark was a dump site, She follows John, wanted to take it back with a fight John was pissed and threw it on the floor The jar broke, blood and chunks scattered on the floor. She was so shocked she didn't know what to do, She cups the infant and kissed it through She saw a knife on the ground beside the broken jar, She slowly picked it up and looked John walking from afar. She slowly ran to the back of John, Cut his back and he painfully turn Another strike landed on his throat He falls to the ground can't even shout She then stab and cut his throat open Weeping, crying and then finally laughing Warm blood gushed from the open throat and she touches it, She then smells, feels and licks it. She felt happy and was satisfied The innocence in her finally died She then left John's body without a #life, Still bringing with her, her dearest knife.

Old Times In the balcony of memories, I rest. Watching the old sceneries without a mess. It's the same old house, the same old trees, The same old scene that gives you bliss. I never imagined myself smiling, While in the dusty chair sitting Reminiscing the memories from the past At this very day, Alas! It's back then when I feel at ease. There were no worries or people I will miss. I was used to doing the same old routine From early morning until the late evening. I've never thought this scene could hold much, Much of those simple memories I didn't know would last. Now I'm just remembering all of them By reminiscing the events back then I know I can't bring back the past The fact that time flies so fast. However, this will always be with me And will forever motivate and inspire me.

Listen can you hear my thoughts? Can you feel my heart? Can You hear me speak under my breath? Or hear my heart breaking apart? Oh how I wish you knew What I am going through All these troubles killing me inside That every time you look, I hide. Can you even notice my puffy eyes On the next day, don't you realize? Can't you hear me oftentimes sniffing at night? Can't you question "did she had a fight?" I am trying my best to hide All these troubles I felt inside But at the same time I wanted you To really know the truth. Listen, I really wanted you to realize That I am really broken inside I wish you could hear me out now While I cry and pray aloud. Nothing is going right i easily lose when we fight I am trying to hold back my tears Whenever you call me "worthless", I fear. I always wanted to tell to myself I can do this without any help I always keep to myself all your words Advices, sermons and most of the hurtful words. Little did I know, I'm losing my self-worth Thinking I deserve all these hurts Accepting the fact that I'm a failure, In your eyes and in the eyes of my father I lost all what I expect in myself I wanted to put myself on the shelf I don't ever want to cause trouble I want these all to me, just subtle. I always pray at night before I sleep Asking God how will I keep? All these misunderstandings And all these stupid things I often tell to God, "please Let your light enlighten her heart Because I really do missed All the things we did when we're not apart" All the time I'm living in blue That's because the reason is you. Even if I already told my troubles to anyone I still need you to listen to me, Mom.