The Voices Told Me To... Chapter 7 She closed the door behind them and then pushed him against the wall. He pulled her body to his pressing against him. She raised her leg up to his hip and put her arms around his neck and looked in his eyes. He looked in her eyes and put his left hand on her hip and his right hand on her leg running his hand up her leg until he got both hands on her hips then in one swift movement he picked her up and kissed her deeply and passionately. She moaned quietly as his hands moved to her lower back and slowly slid down into her pants and squeezed the inside of her thigh gently as he bit her lower lip easily. Her body tensed up and she put her mouth to his neck. "I love you." She breathed "I love yo..." She bit his neck as hard as she could. His hands moved out of her pants and to her back in seconds as he scratched. She let go of his neck and sucked gently and kissed it so it wouldn't hurt as badly. He laid her down on the bed still on top of her and kissed her roughly. She grabbed at him pulling him closer. Then he stopped. "Wait baby, it's been a while." He whispered then kissed her forehead. She was confused and kind of hurt by his sudden stopping. He got off of her and walked out of the room. What was that? Does he not want me anymore? Is it because I'm "bigger"?... She sat waiting cross legged on the bed, she finally stood up and walked into the bathroom and shut the door. She turned sideways and peered at herself in the mirror. She saw a slight bump just barely showing. Her hand slowly reached down and cupped her belly. She shook her head and moved her hand away quickly. She stood for a second then leaned over the sink vigerously scrapping her teeth with her tooth brush. Then she ran a brush through her hair as fast as she could, looked at herself again in the mirror ajusting herself then ran back into her room and flopped on the bed. She laid on her stomach shoving her face into her pillow. Just as she was getting anxious she felt his hand slide down her back his fingers brushing her spine gently. "I'm back my darling." He kissed her gently then turned off the lights and lit a few candles and sat them on her bedside table. He turned on some slow music that started with violins then the piano chimed in lightly creating a beautiful harmony. He climbed back on top of her kissing her deeply but still gently his hands brushed against her sides and she cold feel him slowly undressing her kissing every inch of her body. She closed her eyes and bit her lip as he worked his magic and made her feel beautiful.

The Voices Told Me To... Chapter 6 The drive home was quiet, no one spoke. Jason pulled his truck into the driveway then got out. Anna awkwardly crawled across the leather seat of the truck then slid down to the ground carefully. Jason studied her movements so intently she felt her face get red and the self-consciousness feeling she had forgotten came back. He smiled then held her close the sun was setting and it was getting chilly. He stood there holding her, his left arm was wrapped around her waist and his right arm was on the back of her neck. She felt the chills go down her spine when he leaned his face close to hers and slowly breathed. His breath smelled sweet like honey, she leaned her head forward and their lips touched. At first it was gently, then his hand was in her hair pulling softly and the kiss got deeper. He pressed her body closer to his, she felt so loved. The kissed ended and he stood holding her. “I love you Anna.” He breathed. She smiled; his hand on her waist slowly fell down to her hip. His fingers caressed her skin where her shirt met her jeans. Her breathing stopped, his touch made every muscle tense up and she felt butterflies in her stomach. or not. Jason’s expression froze and he leaned back to see her whole face. “You’re not the same size, you've gotten bigger.” His face was dark from the shadows the sinking sun was now throwing around creating a beautiful view directly behind Jason. Anna fixed her gaze on the background and ignored the inquiring look her lover was giving her. Her mind was racing she didn’t know what to say her throat was closing under pressure. “I'm not that much bigger am I...” She paused “I love you too.” she stood on her tip toes and kissed him gently. He looked at her intently. “Do you want me to stay the night with you tonight, in case you need to go to the hospital again?” He whispered as he embraced her once again. "No, I'm fine tonight I have Rachelle remember?" Jason looked at Rachelle who had just finished gathering her things out of his truck and was now walking into the house. "Do you want me to stay the night with you tonight?" This time pleading rather than asking. Anna looked in his eyes and watched as fear slowly flickered in his eyes. She had never been to Jason's home but every time it was time to go he never wanted to leave and she saw this flicker of fear for a second every time she never knew why though. "You can stay the night if it's okay with your mom..." "She's fine with it." He cut her off mid sentence then kissed her. She felt his lips crush hers and he pulled her close again. She pulled away, he reached for her but she grabbed his hand and turned around pulling him towards the house. She turned her head to peer at him over her shoulder and she saw that crooked smile she loved. She drug him into the house, up the stairs, and into her room.

The Voices Told Me To... Chapter 5 DING DING DING! She woke up, it was the end of her last mod and she felt much better, her head wasn’t pounding as badly anymore. She could think clearly now without the pain, but she could still feel it pounding against her skull ever so slightly. Its time to go home, I can go home and lay down for a bit. Take a few aspirin, I’ll feel better in no time. She picked up her things and started to walk out of Ms. Brooks’ English class when she felt the pain. Her head felt as if it was going to explode, she crumbled to the cold hard floor clutching her head. She bit her lip to keep from screaming but the pain was to much, she felt her teachers hands trying to roll her over out of her fetal position telling her to relax that everything was going to be okay, and asking what was wrong. Her voice was panicky. Then, everything went black. Anna Belle woke up in a hospital bed, the pain was gone and she could sit up but just barely. In the mirror that was across the room from the bed she saw herself in the bed gown and covered up in the white bed sheets. Her hair was perfect just like her makeup, and her pain was gone. She looked harder at the mirror and in the corner of the room she saw Jason leaning against the wall with an impish smile. She turned to look at him and the pain grew worse she whimpered and he smiled bigger then under the blankets she felt something wet. She threw the blankets off of her and saw a pool of blood between her thighs she screamed! She got out of the bed and ran to Jason the pain doubling with each step. She clung to him and fell to the floor crying. All she saw was Jason’s smile. Anna Belle Boleyn awoke with a start. She sat strait up and looked around, scared out of her mind. Jason stood up from the chair across from the bed she was in and hurried over to her. He grabbed her hand and kissed it. “Are you okay? Do you need anything? I could get you some water? Are you hungry?…” Jason stuttered tripping over his own words trying to make her comfortable. She only wanted one thing. “What happened?” She asked her voice sounded rough and low. She needed some water she was parched. Jason’s big black eyes got big and the color flushed from his face. His mouth hung open then closed again, this happened two or three times he was at a loss for words. He looks like a hooked fish, why won’t he tell me what happened? Anna thought. “You sound hoarse; you need water I’ll get it for you. You should rest; you lost so much blood and had a concussion. Rest my love, I shall be back.” Jason kissed her forehead and was gone. She sat there in the hospital bed confused and in pain. Slowly the dream crept back to her consciousness the bed, the blood, and Jason. She reached her hand under the clothes on the bed ran her hand up the inside of her thigh and she felt nothing, she grazed her stomach with her other hand still feeling the small bump. She was fine, the baby was fine. She felt relieved, but what had happened to her? She laid back down on the hard hospital pillow and closed her eyes just as Jason came back in. “Here’s your water my darling, I’ve been so worried about you. Your sister is down stairs in the cafeteria waiting for you. I’ve already got the discharge papers filled out; you can go home whenever you want Hun.” He smiled then caressed her hair easily avoiding the stitches behind her ear, she sat up and looked at him, and he beckoned her to drink the water. She took a drink and it felt amazing, the cold liquid slithered down her throat enabling her to talk normal again. She cleared her throat and looked at Jason. “I want to go home now…” She said, Jason jumped to his feet helped her out of the bed, and into her clothes. She hated hospitals, the smell, the sounds, the colors. Its depressing and Anna felt gross just breathing the air, and Jason knew this. He had her out of the hospital as quickly as she had been taken there with Rachelle following right behind them talking about a piece of pie in the cafeteria that she ate. “It was fucking amazing sis, you shoulda ate it! It was like my taste buds exploded with happiness and joy and pie!” Rachelle was saying while flailing her arms around as she spoke two-hundred miles per hour. Anna smiled as they walked to Jason’s truck. When they got to the truck Rachelle was still talking but now Anna had started talking back, and Jason was watching Anna like a hawk just to be sure she was okay. He opened the truck door then in one swift move picked Anna up and sat her in the truck. He kissed her hand then turned to Rachelle. “Do you need help too?” He asked trying to be a gentleman. “Nope, I’m good.” Rachelle hopped up in the truck and sat next to her sister. He closed the door and saw Anna smile at her sister then laugh. She has the prettiest smile I’ve ever seen, she makes my heart pound when she smiles. I wish she would more often. He walked around the truck and got in. Everything was quiet he looked over at the girls. Rachelle was no longer talking, and Anna wasn’t smiling. “What’s wrong?” He asked looking only at Anna. “Why was I in the hospital? I don’t remember.” She asked innocently, her eyes huge like a scared kid. “You had an anxiety attack and fell and hit your head.” “You mean like a panic attack?” Her voice was quiet and scared. Jason wrapped his arms around her and kissed her forehead. “Yes my dear, but it’s okay now. It was just the stress of it being the first day back at school after the long weekend, and we had that paper due that you spent so much time on. It’s okay, its over now. From now on tell me if you’re stressed and I’ll take care of it.” I’m pregnant, I’m stressing and I’m pregnant. She looked into his eyes and saw pure worry and love. She began to cry, I will tell him tomorrow not today, but tomorrow he will know the truth. Why I’m so stressed.

The Voices Told Me To... Chapter 4 Jason was tall with short shaggy black hair that covered his eyes slightly. He was big, the quarterback on the football team to be exact. He looked like the kind of guy that would break your arm for looking at him the wrong way, but when you talked to him he was caring, funny, and compassionate. Anna loved that about him, but she still had a creeping thought to be scared of him. He never did anything to hurt her, but she could never be too careful. He had black eyes that reminded her of the white rabbit’s eyes, the small black penetrating knowing eyes that she hated with a passion. They walked in through the large double doors, and into the lunch room. She saw their friends sitting in the corner of the table in the back. Jennifer, Matt, Kelly, Samantha, Kasey, Alex, and Bryan all sat together. Jen and Matt were all over each other like usual, Kasey was talking to Kelly and Samantha about makeup tips, and Bryan was arguing with Alex about video games when they walked up. Jason looked at Bryan. “Slide over bro, I need a seat.” Bryan slid down and Jason sat down then slid down some for Anna to sit down. She sat quietly listening to everyone else’s conversations. “What do you think Anna? Do you use pencil eyeliner, liquid, or the twist tube stuff?” Kasey asked. Kelly and Samantha were looking at her expectantly for the right answer. “Put pencil on the bottom because it’s darker and makes a thin line and liquid on the top.” She said closing her eyes to show them. “I can’t even see your top eyeliner through your eyelashes. They’re so damn long. I’m jealous.” Samantha said crossing her arms over her chest, making Anna smile, all of her self-consciousness had disappeared. “My mom used to say I had the prettiest eyes, and then Anna came over.” Kelly said giggling. Then Kasey, Kelly, and Samantha went on talking about Anna’s eyes and comparing each others. Anna decided to exit the conversation; she looked over and saw Jason arguing with Bryan and Alex about some new video game that just came out. Jason had already bought it and decided it was a waste of money. Alex agreed but Bryan said it was the best game he’s ever played. Anna put her fingers on her temples and pushed trying to rid herself of her terrible headache. She closed her eyes and ignored everything around her, she saw images of her dream she had not even two hours ago pass through her mind, she saw the white rabbit’s eyes, and she remembered how scared she was when Rachelle was in the kitchen with her this morning. Why was I even scared? It was around time to go to school so she was going to be up. Why am I still scared? They died nine years ago, the man hasn’t been caught but he also hasn’t murdered anyone else. She calmed herself trying to clear her mind when she realized everyone was quiet. She looked up and her friends were staring at her. She felt her face get red and she apologized. “Sorry, I’m tired. I got no sleep last night and now I have a headache from it.” “Don’t apologize, are you okay?” Kasey asked. “My mom gets headaches like that and she takes meds for it that makes her pass out for hours! Nothing can wake the woman up when she takes them.” Samantha said matter-of-factly. “I don’t need sleeping pills.” Anna said flatly. “Shiit... They’re more like tranquilizers!” She laughed. Anna smiled, but was kind of annoyed. She wanted today to be over all ready she still felt like something bad was going to happen either today or sometime soon. She sat there engaging in short conversations but not exerting any energy on gossiping or school work until the bell rang. She grabbed her stuff and hurried to her homeroom after kissing Jason bye and telling her friends she see them later. She walked upstairs to the H hallway and went in Mr. Ripley’s homeroom. She was so happy she had no friends in there or in her first mod, the last thing she wanted to do was talk. She just wanted to sleep…

The Voices Told Me To... Chapter 3 She walked up the stairs, still kind of tired from the lack of sleep she got. Walking into her room she grabbed a long sleeve shirt and a pair of skinny jeans. She threw them on the sink as she walked into the bathroom, she looked at herself in her full length mirror. Her makeup smeared all down her cheek from sleeping with it on, her hair in a giant knot on top of her head but her bangs hung in front of her right eye. Being only eighteen she looked like she was in her late twenties early thirties. Her parents had died nine years before, and since then she had taken all the responsibilities they had left behind (cooking for two people, cleaning a two story house, and most of all taking care of Rachelle who was only sixteen and in that stage of being rebellious and headstrong) the stress had gotten to her and she was showing it. She took her hair out of her knot and examined it as it fell to the middle of her back. The dark brown “curls” that had became abundant from sleeping with it up and was knotted looking hideous. Her shape was curvy and she was perfect in all the right places, yet something still bothered her. She turned to the right she looked over at the mirror peering at her self sideways. Her critical eyes stopped at her stomach that was slightly “imperfect”. No don’t let that little bump be what I think it is… She looked at her face her makeup smeared from sleeping, her eyelashes glued together by caked on mascara, her lip gloss smeared down her chin. She slumped over to the shower and turned it on. She stepped in and the boiling water hit her face burning her skin. She held her face in the water scrubbing her face so hard she thought her skin was going to peel off under the rag she was using. She quit scrubbing then flipped her head upside down and shampooed her hair. The tangles vanishing as she scrubbed. She watched the bubbles disappear down the drain, and then it hit her. The pain shot through her stomach making her collapse on the floor and she had the feeling that something was going to really alter her #life today. What is wrong with me and with this pain? Is it what I think? Could I possibly be what I think I am…? She stood up clutching her stomach she turned off the water and stepped out of the shower. The pain eased as she did this it just seemed like something bad was going to happen at this point. She looked at the clock. She was going to be late for school. Putting on her makeup with such precaution, she seemed to make all of the extra years shed gained from stress, fade away. She straitened her hair and looked at herself again now looking almost like her sisters twin except her dark brown hair and her eyes weren’t as piercingly blue, she smiled pleased with the work of art she just created. Walking back in her room, she checked her phone for messages. She found twenty three new messages all saying "Happy Birthday Anna!” She smiled and texted a boy named Jason that was the top of her list and texted: I'm awake come on over love you see you in a second. She put her phone back on her night stand and went back in the bathroom to examine herself once more and to fix any imperfections. Not even a half an hour later the doorbell rung. Jason was standing at the door with a bouquet of flowers with a box of chocolates. “Hello my love, happy birthday.” He smiled at Anna and leaned over to hug her, she hugged him back. “Hello darling, thank you.” She smiled and offered for him to come in. “No, I can’t we need to go to school.” He said then nodded to Rachelle who was standing behind Anna. “Good morning.” “So are you going to stand in the door all day or come in?” Rachelle stated looking at Jason evilly (she hated Jason for some strange reason unknown to Anna) “No I thought I would stand here all day and stare at your beautiful sister all day.” He replied sticking out his tongue at her. “Whatever,” She rolled her eyes and looked at Anna “I’m riding to school with Harley instead of you two and you know why.” She nodded towards Jason then walked over to her and whispered in Anna’s ear “He gives me the heebie-jeebies. Be careful I know you’ve dated him for three years, I just don’t trust him.” She leaned back on her left leg to take a look at Anna’s face, nodded then spun on her heels and walked out the front door to Harley who was already waiting for her on his Harley Davison which Anna thought was ironic. “Ok let’s go.” She walked inside; putting Jason’s flowers and chocolate on the counter grabbed her books, and walked out to Jason’s 87 model white Chevy truck. He lifted her up to put her in because she was too short. He jumped in on the other side of the truck and looked at her. “Are you ok?” He asked looking concerned. She thought for a second, acknowledging her skull splitting headache, her stomach pain, and remembering her nightmare. “Yea I just have a feeling something bad is going to happen. I just don’t know what…” She trailed off. He sat for a second thinking of what she had just said and stared at her, then started the car and pulled out of the driveway. “Does it feel like something bad is going to happen today to you?” She asked Jason uneasily. “Not really.” He said, and then they sat there in silence. She squirmed in her seat. Finally she decided something productive would take her mind off of the feeling she had. She had some language homework where she had to write a #poem, some math, and Spanish (that would be impossible to complete on her own). After ten minutes of driving and attempting to concentrate on some math problems she gave up, just as they pulled into the school parking lot. It looked like a prison in Anna’s mind but she liked to go, it made her feel like she wasn’t the adult she was made to be. She hopped out of the truck after gathering up her books and waited for Jason. He walked around the truck to her and took her books then they walked inside together.