Stay Strong No one cares no one loves me. I'm too broken to be loved. Who would ever want to love me? This girl who's been torn apart by #life? I want to end it, I want to cut a little deeper than I ever have before. I want to feel the blade slicing into my battered, worn skin. When they find me, the people that have claimed to love me, they will finally see the scars: the painful memories written in slashes on my bare skin. I want that so bad that my body is shaking and tears are running down my face. I hate this pain; I hate #life. I hate myself, I hate everyone. I. Just. Want. To. Die. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dedicated to everyone who feels this way, I know what you're going through... and with every fiber in my body I believe that at the end of your storm there is a rainbow. Just please stay strong an get through it. I pray for all of you that are hanging on to that last thread of hope, I cry for you, I feel for you. If I could take your place I would do it. I know you feel unloved, I feel it too. You can stay strong, jut think about far far ahead in the future, think about the great things that might take place after the storm, when you reach that rainbow. you might not see it now, but you have so much potential: so much #life to live. NEVER GIVE UP. I love every single one of you, Xx.

Story Of My #life Asks for my heart Steals it instead. Wants to be in my heart, Now he's in my head. Consumes all my thoughts, It's driving me mad. Does he have my love, or is it just a fad? He tells me his secrets, how he's far from perfection. I'm in this too deep, he's my only direction. He knows every freckle, the shade of my eyes. Starts sharing with me what he's been keeping inside. And I love the way his eyes sparkle, the way they light up. I swear, I know, that he'll always be the one. And just one I know that I never want to go back, he tells me that he just wants to be friends.

Falling- Chapter 3 We were driving along peacefully when I heard sirens. I pulled over and looked through the back window, but didn't see a police car. "Your under arrest!" I heard a voice yell and I smiled. It was Niall. "Um, are you a cop now?" "No, it's just a new effect on my Ford," he said smirking and pointing to his compact car. "Um, I'm gonna have to write you a ticket.." He continued, pulling out a notepad. "...for having your headlights off in the daytime," he laughed and I laughed. "So, why did u pull me to the side of the road?" I asked. "Um, I wanted to talk to you," he said clearing his throat. "Ok," I replied and stepped out of the car and slammed my door shut. Rose had been intently listening to her music on her phone, and snapped her head to the window when she heard the door slam. She furrowed her brow and gave me a confused look. I waved my hand at her as if to tell her 'nothing. Now shut up and listen to your music' and she did exactly that. Niall looked at me with a cute innocent look on his face, like he was studying me. "So..." I said breaking the short silence. "Um, ya, I kinda wanted to ask you if you wanted to go to a restaurant with me tomorrow, you know, for lunch" He said. I nodded my head and smiled. "Is this like a date?" I asked searching for a frown on his face. See, boys didn't usually like me. They thought I was too loud and obnoxious even though me and my friends thought I was funny and truthful. "Ya, definitely," he said giggling. I smiled and said "well u better hurry. Your going to be late for your concert I'm sure," "oh,ya. Well I'll see you in like, 10 minutes then," he said laughing. I laughed back and we both waved goodbye. I climbed into the drivers seat and gently closed the door behind me. Rose was silent but I could feel her staring at me from the backseat. "So; what's up?" I asked her and she finally turned to look out the window. "Erm, nothing. Wassup with you? Anything EXCITING happen?" She asked, smirking. "Well, I'm going on a date with Mr. horan," I claimed calmly. "And that's not exciting, how?" She asked laughing. "I didn't say it wasn't," I laughed. "We'll dont think I'm not going to crash your date," she said laughing in a horrible evil laugh imitation. I laughed. "Erm, no." I told her what happened outside the car and she listened very intently. She seemed awful interested in my dating #life out of the blue. But, she was my sister and she might care a tad bit. We talked about Niall the whole way to the concert. Niall's P.O.V. I couldn't stop thinking about our date tomorrow. I couldn't wait! I was going to take her to Nando's then go to this really nice private beach when the sun begins to set. It's going to be super romantic! I probably couldn't get a stupid grin off my face, and that might have been part of the reason the boys were all looking at me weird. Right after we finished rehearsing for the concert, the boys all sat down for a water break. Louis started the whole conversation. "So, Niall. What's going on with Alli and you?" He said smirking. The other boys stifled a laugh and smiled at me. "Ya, it seems like you love her," Harry said. "Are you going to go on a date, and have kids?" Louis asked in a child's voice. The boys started cracking up and I sighed. "Ok, first we have to get married Lou," I groaned and he smiled. "Oh, right." He laughed. "So, have you asked her on a date yet?" Asked Liam, who was the mature one out of the group. "Um, ya." I mumbled, looking down but smiling. "That's my boy!" Yelled Louis and the other four started jumping around and fist pumping the air. "So, how and when did you ask her out?" Zayn asked. I told them about my cop joke and they started cracking up at how stupid it was and I laughed too, at my own stupidity. "Ya, then I asked her if she wanted to go out to lunch with me tomorrow," I explained. They oohed and aahed. I explained my plan for the date until Paul(Higgins) walked into the room and shouted "5 minutes till stage time boys!" We all jumped up and headed towards the backstage. It had been 5 minutes and we were all waiting impatiently. The stage director yelled to us "time!" And a booming voice yelled "Indianapolis! Welcome....ONE DIRECTION!!!" And we jogged out onto the stage with mics in hand and waving to the crowd. I saw her. Front row and wearing gray leggings, a brown vest, and a pink beanie. Her hair was in natural dirty brown waves with blonde streaks. She looked amazing. She was clapping along to our first song 'Rock Me'. We passed through all 13 songs within an hour, stopping for twitter questions and just being the group that we are;D but at the end the audience got to choose a song that they wanted us to sing again. There were tons of screams everywhere. Harry announced that we would be singing 'truly Madly Deeply' which happened to be off our old album. It was a song I loved but we rarely ever got to play. As my part came I looked out into the crowd and began to sing: 'Like all those days and months and weeks I tried to steal a kiss, and all those sleepless nights and daydreams where I pictured this. I'm just the underdog who finally got the girl, and I am not ashamed to tell it to the world.' The chorus started to play and Alli started swaying back and forth to the music. She did this crazy wierd dance move then started to do the disco. I laughed. RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF LIAM'S SOLO!!!!! I covered my mouth and Harry and the others glared at me but we shrugged it off. Man, I couldn't wait for this concert to be over.

Is It Love? Do u ever get that feeling? The fuzzy one? The one that keeps you up every single night? The one that you can't seem to get out of your brain Yet you sit there, wanting to keep it there. It's like a song, playing on repeat. It's like a heart, it never skips a beat. I hate it but I love it, because YOU caused it. And that's what lets me know That its love that I'm feeling.

Falling- Chapter 2: Kik I was probably nearly hyperventilating on the way home, but I couldn't tell. I couldn't stop thinking about the blonde boy. He was unmistakable cute, with an adorable smile and sense of humor. His laugh tingled in my brain for minutes afterward. He gave me shivers. Was this love? Or just a stupid school girl crush? I was jolted out of my daydream by Rose yelling "Stop!" As I almost ran a red light. My Chevy impala screeched to a halt and we both were caught short of breath. "Thanks." I finally breathed and continued as the stop light turned green. "So..." Rose said. "WhAt?" I asked. "You like him." She stated, it not being a question apparently. "Um, I don't know if I like him yet, ya know." I muttered/coughed and squinted to focus on the road. "You do." She said leaning forward and placing one of her elbows on the dashboard and turned to look at me more intently. "So what if I do?" I answered. "I don't know, just wanted to make sure. Ya know, wouldn't want him to find out or anything," she smirked mischievously. She sat back and flipped her phone back and started typing. "So what're you doing?" I asked her, kind of worried from the conversation just a few seconds before. "You know just tweeting," she smirked again. "Rose." I said my face falling into a serious look. "Give.me.the.phone." I yelled. "No! Mine!" She yelled in a childish tone. I groaned. "Fine! But get off of twitter!" I yelled and she huffed. "Whatever," she shrugged and snapped her phone shut. We drove down the road in silence. Rose stared intently out the window and neither of us dared to brake the peaceful silence. "Did u get his number?" Rose mumbled. "Ya," I mumbled back. She did a dramatic nod and raised her eyebrows then turned to look at me. "How much longer?" She asked. I sighed. We finally made it home, right before 11 at night. I decided to text Niall in the morning, not wanting to look too desperate or to look like I liked him. As soon as I walked into my room, my phone dinged. It read: 'one kik message from NiallLovesNandos93'. I smiled and flicked the screen to unlock my iPhone. Here's how the conversation went: N: Heyy Alli, what's going on girl? A: not much, what are you doing? N: Same. Can't stop thinking about you 'Did he just say that?' I thought. I scrolled through the messages and read it again. I guess he did. He texted again. N: whoops! Awkward silence moment! Anyway, I wanted to ask you to come and hang out with me and the boys tomorrow after the concert. Sound cool with you? You can bring Rose if she wants to come too A: sounds great! I'll have to check with my mom. She's coming home from a 2 week business trip tomorrow morning. But she already oked the concert so I think she'll be fine with it. N: ok. See you then? A: yep, see you then N: ok, hey can you text me so I have your number and we don't have to talk on kik? A: yep, just a sec N: ok thanks;D A:bye! N: Bye c wuuuu soon A: I was so excited for tomorrow. I was going to get to meet the boys a second time and hang out with niall!!! Wow. Things had really changed today. Yesterday some boy in my grade had asked me out, and I said I'd think about it. But I have other plans now That morning Rose ran into my room singing at the top of her lungs "I love one direction and I will marry Louis Tomlinson and he invited me to his concert because he loves me!!!" I didn't even know if it was considered singing, but it was something. I raised my eyebrow at her and did a disgusted face. "Or, because Niall loves you!" She continued, adding jazz hands. I shook my head and stood up to grab my coat. "You ready to go?" I asked "yep!" She piped back. I grabbed my car keys and yelled to my mom "we're leaving!" "Ok! Have fun! Drive safe!" SHe yelled back from the other room. This was going to be a fun day. I smiled for like the 100,000th time since yesterday.