Alienated
I'm feeling the separation,
though we were once so near.
That spark of affection in your eyes
seems to have disappeared.
I'm running round in circles,
searching for a cure,
wishing i could make things
like they were before.
I'm a broken person
becoming someone new,
but every little step I take
embitters your mood.
Accusations fly around
that I'm pushing you away,
but the barriers you've erected
are stronger than I. Somedays
you laugh and joke and smile -
I almost feel at ease,
then without a cause or warning
you're hostile. Was it just a tease?
I'm getting whiplash, am I going mad?
Am I remembering wrong?
Is it all my fault? What's happening?
Please, tell me what's going on.
Your words haunt my waking world
I cry myself to sleep
I need my family, but you're not there.
When did I become this weak?
And now as I'm set to leave
My bags are at the door
I wonder if I'll be welcome when I return.
Do you love me anymore?