You? The words felt like they cut deep like a knife into the flesh. I felt foolish thinking that the feeling would be shared. I can't explain how I feel or why I feel but I just know that I need you. You, who is there for me Who listens to me Who supports me Who understands me. I realize the you I need is not the you that you are, and yet I cling to the hope that she is in there begging to be seen. To be heard. By me. Is all my hope I. Vain? Maybe, but I can't shake it. My friends may call me crazy for thinking this, I think it myself at times. But it's the hope that maybe this unrequited love isn't so futile that keeps me going.

Hope I've been alone for a while now Alone with my thoughts Alone with my fears Just painfully alone. Nobody to hold To hug To talk to To call my own. Where are you WHO are you When will you walk into my #life? Will you love me for me Will you think I'm cute Will you think I'm funny? Will you let me hold you Hug you Talk to you Call you my own? I guess we'll see. Won't we? I hope.

Gone I was scared But she was there for me to comfort me. I was confused but she kissed me though my mouth still full of questions. I was worried but she assured me it'd be ok. I was alone but she told me she loved me. I'm still scared but she's no longer here to comfort me. I'm Still confused but her lips are no longer here to comfort me. I'm still worried but she can no longer offer me assurance. I'm alone now. But she loves another man.

Crippling It's cripples me. It eats me. It nags me. It just will not seem to leave my mind alone. I fight it. I hide it. I keep it inside. Though I fear that one day it'll consume me. I muster a smile. I laugh for a while. I set it aside. But it always finds it's way back. I'll beat it. I'll face it. I'll fight it. But today is not the day.

Waited I told you I'd wait though for what I'm not sure. Wait for you to change your mind? Wait for you to figure out what you want? I said I'd wait. Wait through the heartache, wait through the pain, waiting for you as you ran through my brain. I said I'd wait. I said I'd wait through the winter and he spring, sitting by the phone hoping it'd ring. But instead I waited as the summer became fall calling myself a fool for thinking I had a chance at all. And yet I'm still waiting.