Stuck outside No one answers my plea Its only me No where to hide From my convoluted mind I just want out Of this forsaken rut Im not a nut i silenty shout Whenever im alone I jist want to go home Not to the place The mindset Shove my laundry in my closet Away from sight Where i cant feel the bite Of all ive done Like a broke bone Thoughts throb Of my pa bob Minimal visits Formed only by requisite I could never see What it did to not him But me My priorites in shambles My #life turned to rambles From drunk stupers To unwilling pupils I convinced mysekf they cared About the onformation i shared How could they When i start talking I dont even know what im going to say

Where am i I cant feel joy Unable to recognice strife Caught up in the hoi polloi I never thought Id be so shallow My river draught All i do is wallow In self pity Refusing to make a stand a victim of my city A drummer in a band Who cant even play So many talents Still concealed Lacking balance No interests revealed Will i ever determine Who i really am get a peak in What turns me to a lamb When shit goes south And i pretend to to give a damn Fighting my battles with my mouth

Alcoholic Rationalization The fire Good times for hire Nothing less Than turning #life to a mess I thought i knew Exactly what to do Ive been down this road Grew the seed i sewn Watched it bloom Into my own doom I just wish We could go swish Without having to smoke Having to hear them cough and choke Its insuferable Their lives held by a hemp cable Why cant they see What that shit did to me An i aint sayin its a gateway But that doors gonna open one day From smoke To coke Gonna trade in that joint For a point Who am i foolin My boys done been drooling Raking up for bars Staying up in the stars Play with fire an you get burnt Thats why im just out getting turnt