Minds Change Chris changed his mind again. He's going to ask me out on Monday, and I think I'm gonna say yes. I hung out with him for the first time out of school, and he was really sweet. Now me and my friend isabelle can double date cause her boyfriend is like bestfriends with Chris. But I'm not sure that my dad will be okay with it. I'm afraid he'll think I'm not in the emotional state to be in a relationship, because of my grandmothers passing less than a month ago. I'm still gonna date him no matter what. I just don't want to have to hide it from him.
I Hate Guys So Chris told me yesterday that he was thinking about asking me out. He asked me what I would say, and I said I didn't know. Cause I didn't. But after texting him today, I realized, I want to say YES. But like after an hour of realizing this, he texts me saying " idk if I want to go out anymore I like being able to talk to other girls". I didn't know he was talking to other girls? And the thing that pisses me off is, I used to talk to other guys too, but I stopped for me and Chrises sake. But I guess he doesn't care, so I might as well be a whore now *shrugs*
I wish I could be one of those happy people. Where in their lives, there is always a happy ending. My friend told me this once; "you gotta go through hell to get to heaven". But what if weve gone through so much hell? That we can't even take it even more? Nothing ever works out in my #life. I just wish I could be one of those pretty happy girls that always get what they want. I've never had that. Never.