Ill Make It Out Alright I don't want to hear what you have to say. These days are all the same. Trying to see through fog and rain. I just want to stay in my room and waste away. I hate everything around me. And I hate what I've grow to be. But this past year has made me see, that the worst of all is inside of me. If I could bring myself to say, everything I've been trying to say. Things wouldn't be the same. But things aren't the same.

The Time I've Been Wasting You're like a bad taste I can't get out if my mouth. When I look at you I can't help but see myself, how blind I was, how you stole the breath from my chest, and how much I've grown since then. Looking back on those times make me sick to my stomach. The time that I was wasting and oh how I loved it. There was a gap between my heart and mind that I couldn't piece together. But ever since I woke up my mind has been darker than ever. Ever since I woke up, my heart has been colder than ever. These days are empty. These nights are cold. How many more useless days will I spend alone? But who am I kidding, everyone dies alone.

I find myself living just to see the end of the day. Blurred sight of past and present, what the fuck am I even doing? Those memories are useless and draining. I'm trying to spill my guts but I keep refraining. Because letting things out is too hard. But keeping things in keeps my mind scarred. I'm bleeding on the inside and I don't really care. Because in the end who's really there? I'm alone with these walls. How long until my eyes shut for the last time? I hope it's soon.