Goodbye I know that you will miss me but I can't stay here anymore. So please don't cry. Ill be in a better place . A place where I can finally stop fighting my battles . The battles that kept destroying me inside. If you could only look at my heart you will see anger, sadness , fear,powerless,lonely,pathetic,useless me. I know this isn't the answer to my problems but its the only way out. I don't when things started going bad but I am not me anymore. I someone I don't like. I don't like being this person who keeps hurting me. I can't live like this anymore. Goodbye everyone I will miss all of you. (Speak before its late and end up like me)

Faggot "You're a faggot" you say it as if being gay is something horrible. "You're a faggot" you say it as I am gay and don't want me to get the wrong ideas."You're a faggot" you say it as if you're trying to prove that your straight . "You're a faggot" you say just because you want to fallow. "You're a faggot" just to insult others. Seriously think before you say something because words can hurt more than anything. Words can drive people's #life's down to hell. "You're a faggot"is not just a phrase with no meaning. It has many meaning and some can hurt others to the point if suicide.

Bleeding Inside I cut myself but I am not bleeding. I am dying inside bleeding to death. Trying to stop it but it just feels so good. I have two people fight for me . One wants me dead and the other one wants me alive . I want them to stop don't they know that inside I am bleeding to death. There's not that much blood left in me . So with a knife I stave my heart............"goodbye" with a smile on my face

The First Cut I though I would never cut myself again. But I couldn't control it anymore . I was just so hurt . Hurt at the fact that you were allowing someone else make you happy . At the fact that someone else was making you laugh , smile and giggle. At the facts that you were letting someone else call you baby. At the fact that you were letting someone else be "mushy" to you. At the fact that you were letting someone else get inside your heart . At the fact that you were calling someone else your "best friend ." At the fact that you were getting confused . At the fact that I couldn't do anything because I was emotionally not okay. At the fact that I couldn't say "fine . Let her make you happy then , I'm done " I really tried to stay strong and not cut but it was just ...... I couldn't stop it. I was just too angry , confused , hurt , and sad. So I took the blade and made the first cut. After that I continue my sessions of cutting myself . So yes I did brake my promise because of you ................. And I ask myself why the hell am I still with you....... It's because I don't want to hurt you........

Goodbye To Everyone Why can't I just sleep at night Why can't I stop cutting Why do I feel so sad and alone Why is it that no one knows how I feel They've seen me cry in but they just sit there in silence ignoring me Why can't they see that every night I cut myself Why can't they just tell me "everything is going to be okay" instead of just sitting in silence watching me bleed Why can't they help me Don't they see that I am dying slowly . They promise me that they would always protect me. Then why are they letting the evil hurt me. Don't they see he wants to hurt me. The evil wants to kill me. He wants to take me away from my hope. My hope tries to fight but the evil is just so strong . He has gotten stronger over the years of blood , tears and loneliness . The evil took my childhood away. I remember being 5 and him making me bleed for the first time. I remember being 10 and the evil making me cry every night . I remember last night the evil telling me to stay in the room with no living soul or light. And so tonight the evil one wins . So this is my goodbye. I really tried but its just something I can't fight. I fought for years but I guess I wasn't strong enough. So tonight I say goodbye to everyone in my #life. I know that you will miss me but please don't cry . Be happy for me because tonight I can finally feel the happiness I haven't felt I'm a long time .