Sleeping beauty I haven't written in a while, Driven by the storms and swept by winds. These long days without a smile, Shuck and locked up in your cage. I don't know what I want from you, There's nothing left to say. But still listen to my none sense, For every word I mean in shame. A year has passed so elegantly, The pain like pin pricks on my skin. But I'm not going to surrender, I'm taking a step to our past, within. I refuse to let the waves steal me, With all the emotions I hide. I don't care that they say I'm crazy, It's my decision, it's me who decides. So listen to me, my first one, As I will not say it again. I love you and always will and have, Just tell me you'll stop our game. I've waited so long for you, I've never let you slip from my mind. I've learnt that when one is in love, They cling to anything left behind. But if you keep playing my heart, Like a harp with flimsy strings. I'll break and shatter into nothing, I'll never find my new beggining. Tell me nothing can come between us, Tell me fairy tales are all lies. Tell me you hate me, Tell me, this is goodbye. Because if you give me anything, Even a whisper or touch. I'll never let you go, I'll wait for centuries, not months. So please tell me you can't love me, I'd rather hear you lie. Then give me unpromised circumstances, Then grant me wishful glances, sighs. They say hope is all you need, But it only weighs me down like lead. It makes my heart go cold, It makes me believe you hold words unsaid. And that from this long dream I'll wake up, And you'll be there to wake me with a kiss. But I'm no sleeping beauty, I'm just a blind fool, growing old without your kiss.

Night Of Encounter On a cold December evening, We are to walk through lit streets. To pass through the crowds, And find our peace. I know you as you are, But not well enough. And on this particular night, I know there will be no bluff. By morals you are forbidden, But by desire you are mine. Your face is a blank page, I feel ink will spill with time. And out will drip the letters, Carved into your skin. Tonight is when I will see, The truth that lies within. You seem so oblivious, Like a book never to be read, You hide in the drawers, Small, unimportant they said. But I know you are something, Grand, clever, wild. On this dark night I will see, The colours in your smile. I am no fortune teller, But I feel it's a bad idea, Though we both are quiet, The moonlight can hear. Our hopes and dreams, Our desires and pain. The night is dangerous, It's not mundane. With love, come scars, And from each one, I have always known, In a way what was to come. If I felt there is no hope, If it is a bad gamble, I would have drawn crosses, And let it fall to shambles. But with the red and yellow bulbs, Twinkling in the mist. This season's trickery will fall on us, Our confusion's kiss.

Fate? I've chosen what I want! I know who I want to be! Then a day later I ask: Are you sure? Really? No, I'm not sure... Nothing makes sense, My mind is a spiral, Devious spiders wind it's web. It's seems I will never know, Until again I am certain, For months I am committed, And then one day the dream breaks its burden. Please help me! I will scream. Ask everyone and anything, What to do and be. My friends say one thing, My parents another, My teachers say everything, My walls just shudder. It's like three rollocoasters, Intertwining with each other, And I'm in the front seat, Where I struggle and stutter. Until I reach the finals, Until I find the end. Choose my dream, And off I go again. I decide I'm not technical, But artistic. That for maths I'm not clever enough, And stay optimistic. But then I think, That I can be technical if I try, If I really do work hard, It's all fine. So here I am balancing my boat, Doing maths, languages, music and science, Oh god... I'm so tired... People say that it's impossible, But somehow I'm doing it. I just really hope for once, I'll decide and stick to it.

A Summer's Dream You've been with her for two years, I still remember how you doubted it. You said us had to disappear, But the shadows came towering. As I pass by, I see your little embraces with her, But if you really let me go, Why do you stop to look and stir. It's something we both know, But won't even whisper. I wonder if you close your eyes, When you kiss her. A couple stories ago, I felt I needed to break it to you, But I never got the nerve, The time let me see through you. If you really wanted me, You would have said so that day, Don't tell me you feel sorry for her, I know it's to cover up my pain. But I won't forget our time, To remember our passion. No I won't be shy, To let the memories glisten. And I won't let it slide, The way you held me so, No won't let it die, Our day in October, no! Because every once in a while, I lock my door and put my headphones in, I turn of the lights, And listen to the dreams trapped within. The happiness and sadness, Of our song. The song I fell in love to, The song of our summer gone.

Blue Irises Here I was minding my own business, Doing my work and paying no attention, Until you walked by, And gave me a look quite sly. I'm not sure what it was for, But then yes I do, of course. There was so much to read in your eyes, So much to understand in those irises of blue ice. Then walked on you, like nothing happened, And I watched you go. But I couldn't help but remember, Our story now two years ago. The promise you made me that I'd be yours, That together we would watch the calm shores. That we were destined to be, That linking hands we'd walk, you and me. Your eyes spoke of swift goodbyes, Of how quickly time really flies. As if in reminisce of the chance we had, And the broken bond you placed in my hand. They spoke in happiness, Of that very day we spent. Of the laughter and star showers, Of how we only had twenty four hours. But they also spoke in sadness, Almost in grief. Of how you looked me into the eyes, And gave the heartbreaking speech. You've been with her for two years, But the glances don't stop. They spoke in desire, The flames growing hot. We don't even speak to each other, We walk on by, quiet as a shudder. But we both know there's a spark still there, When our eyes lock and stare.