Being up so high,
I feel like God.
Untouchable, untraceable,
Unleashing all the unattainable
I’ve been on mountain tops before.
Where they defined me at strange times,
I manipulated them to my needs.
The adrenaline, the dopamine, it peaks here.
There’s no stopping.
I am as light as air,
Float beyond the reaches of the modern day
I do not feel human.
I do not ’live’ or simply ‘exist’
I am.
My presence holds power alone
That ignites an internal flame no one dares to put out.
I pass the world by,
Experienced in flashes,
The universe bares no weight on my shoulders
This is the freedom I thirst for.
I blink
The air I once floated on
Cuts through me like a knife.
I peer the edge of the mountaintops
Seeing the backslide, susceptible to despair
The world passes me by,
Experienced in flashes
The universe drags me to the bottom
These chains bind me to my humanity.
I do not ‘live’ or simply ‘exist’
I cease.
I wither in the shadows,
The bitter blackness silences my soul.
Crash into rock bottom,
I am heavy, beneath all things
I cripple under the weight of the world
I do not feel human.
I’ve been at the bottom before
Where it’s defined me at strange times,
Its needs manipulated me.
The dread, the fear, it peaks here.
Being so low,
I feel like an ant.
Minuscule, muffled
Muddling through the meaningless
I blink
The darkness fades, the weight lifts
I fear being up so high in the air
As I fear what can happen below
All circling back in a blink