It Is You I find it ironic how I'm the happiest in a state that hides the sun 8 out of 12 month a year I find it funny how I lived without my dad my whole #life but have no "daddy issues" My #life is full of irony and backwardness from my #life lessons to the way I speak. My mom did her best to make me act "proper" yet taught me if I want something then to break the rules The school says if you want to be smart you have to do it "our way" yet the teachers let me teach the class my way I'm from the south and forever hating the slang, down yonder is no place I want to be yet I miss the sunny heat I never learned how to write properly yet my teachers can't get enough of my story's All I have know is pain and cruel punishment yet I'm filled with so much love and kindness for others It is not how you where raised or how you have been treated it is you who makes yourself you.

You Are So Much You make me want to write for days about who you are You make me want to sing and dance like nobody is watching You make me want to strive for who I always wanted to be You make me strong when I feel like I can't handle anymore You are everything I dreamed of and so much more How can that be, How can you effect me so deeply Without a worry or thought I run to your every call You are in my own words the love in my heart You are the sunshine I wake up to every morning You are the#mooni stare at with eyes wide open at night You are my world,my love,and my best friend

No More Living your #life for others will never help you I have given up my happiness for others I have given up my voice for others I have given up my soul for others Just to get pain back in return from the ones I love All I wanted was for others to be happy when I felt empty I realize they are the reason I felt empty I'm choosing me for once, I'm choosing to let the truth free I was raped by my own brother as my mother forced it under the rug I was the one who lied to help my mother I was the one who toke all the pain so she could live her #life I was the one who stayed up all night in pain as she slept away As she grew stronger my soul was dying It's time for me to live for myself No more lies No more tears No more "I'm ok" It's time for me to choose myself I'm choosing to make myself happy in #life.

My First I miss you I miss the man you used to be The man who always smiled The man who was my first love Who seems to make me the center of his world With him I felt strong stronger then I ever was With him I learn that I do deserve love I deserve to be happy Everything in my #life was shit everyone who said they loved me turn their backs on me Punished me like i was their toy to throw around Before him I never believed I could fall Before him I had come to believe I was just a toy That I was nothing that I was here for others enjoyment The man I fell for made me love myself more then I could have imaged I believed his view of me was who I was meant to be He healed apart of my heart witch I though could never be touched I will always love him no matter who he becomes He has been the light I was searching for He is and will always be my first for everything I now know true love and I will thank him everyday for this

My Disease I could not eat or even think straight anymore All that's was on my mind is the pain I felt I could not move without wanting to cry Everyday I'm in pain because of my disease Every Time I eat I'm down on my knees I did not want to move or even be touched I wanted to be alone just lay in bed away from the world No one knows the pain I felt or the tears I shed every night My disease can not be seen but I feel it everyday I have celiac disease and now Now that I know I can become strong again. My mind is at easy my spirt is up and I can be myself again.