The Last Time.... For a moment I was so uncertain of what would happen Fear gripped me so severely Until my heart panicked and I was lost.....lost for a while Every image in my head seem to torment me And mocked me Playing a game of thrones Seeking to overturn my rule and reign instead Every time I thought I was winning I was reminded by the enemy that I was loosing Confrontation after another came to shake and test my faith to make me unsure of what I declared that I believed The knocking was as if someone was playing a game of jabber walkin' at my door I felt pressure coming from every direction Reminding me of my past mistakes and that all I was facing was my fault I cowered in a frozen state taking in those venomous words that he spoke to me Images of my past played across my peripheral Showcasing the bad to the absolute worst things that I'd done Knees clutched together as my shelter and barrier against the savage assaults That the devil hurled at me He said, "Remember when you betrayed your love"? And when you shared your heart with TWO than ONE. When you were so carefree doing whatever you wanted to do? Wasn't I good to you? Confusion and reckless abandonment was the ONLY language you understood and you obeyed my voice and that alone". I want you back!! I miss spending time with you I can make everything you're facing go away I can give you your hearts desire at a drop of a whim Let's go back to that place before you question every decision you made Let's go back to the place where I empowered you and gave you sweet freedom to do and be whoever you wanted to be. As I stayed huddled in my little corner His words begin to take shape A silhouette figure began to appear in front of me My eyes traced every intricate detail of the form There was something so familiar about it But yet it was dark and brooding As Formation of womanly curves were now more visible Her eyes were hollow and empty With long slender fingers Toes pointed and astute in my direction Her presence was strong and captivating I felt as if I starred for to long that she would engulf me and snatch my very soul. She was fully clothed with smoked as her garments and the stench of sulfur assuaged my nostrils Until I begin to cough and gagged at the same time Her movements were climaxing with every one of my heartbeats She made the ground beneath her like quivering shockwaves There was nothing I found appealing about her She disgusted me and she knew it She was an a curseth thing that I saw in my past that I never thought that I would see again She was a duplicate of ME A pretender She was everything that I hated about WHO I used to be As she looked at me there was no empathy or love It was only emptiness and vengeance She was vengeful because I cut ties with her I no longer claimed her as a part of my identity Smoke now coming out of her nostrils like a bull ready to attack upon seeing RED SHE planned to recover what was hers or to kill me trying to get it There would be no compromise She believed me to be HERS and NO one else My feet now still shaken begin to move I stood up upon them and refused to back down this time For far to long I ran away I said in my heart,"I Will face you no matter what because I am tired of running". As I looked up I had to refocus my eyes again because there was someone else in the room with us I don't know where they came from or how they got there But they were there.... Standing in front of her And on the side of her As well as behind her I was speechless and terrified at the sight of them but strangely I felt Hope anyways The look they gave reassured me that everything would be okay For I had taken my eyes off of her to focus on them I didn't even see that she launched at me Only to be cut off by those three figures that I had never seen before She reached for me but couldn't get to me She squealed and squealed but no longer could I hear a sound I was capsulated within a barrier that protected me From all of the weapons and fiery darts she tried to throw at me The weapons were fired but they could do me no harm Then all of a sudden I heard a voice say, "She is mine and covered by my blood, for I sacrificed my #life to save her... you no longer have a right to hold her. Be gone and cast away into everlasting damnation." Tears flooded my eyes that I couldn't hardly see I dropped to my knees and surrendered I cried out, "Lord forgive me, and thank you for saving me. I don't deserve any of this for you don't know what I've done. The mistakes I've made the people I've hurt." He came closer and reached down to me and loved me. This wasn't like any love I had ever experienced it was REAL love. He spoke these words to me "That was and is the very Last Time you will ever have to fight with your past again. Know that I have chosen you"! I love you... You are my daughter For I sacrificed everything just for you You are NOW Free!! - [ ]

Waiting For You There were moments that time seems to stand still Where a New Year became foreign to me For I was Locked in time where your face beautifully illuminated And Starry nights became the courier Of Floetry words whispering Into my ears "Wait For Me" As Correspondence became a thought It manifested before my eyes You are mine And I am yours Curious junctions Or delays No longer appeal For eternal calculations Have been predestined By the only ONE that matters No longer concern with Hidden meanings Of shady deals Formed behind the desks of authority For in the timing Of Eliohim Corroded truth will be seen As Cowardice perceptions Entangled in the flesh So I wait... With knowledgeable awakening For He alone knows What bearing we can endure Hold onto the infallible Word That foreknew you Before your conception And Close your ears to bursting bravado boasting Of hasty gestures For as we wait For the Perfect timing Of The Present SON For He alone Sees you at your frailty And lovingly holds you HE gave you dependence And Then Clothed me in independence This independence is not to separate The Me from You But to teach me While I wait That I had to grow up For No one can replace what's irreplaceable Nor dare to cross the border where terrains Of soothing caresses intricately designed by your hands alone. Your love can't be matched by Nostalgic past gatherings Of enticing remembrance I wait with patients in the arms of The Everlasting God As he turns the tide In our direction And designs The backdraft Of togetherness For fairer days are ahead of us He is intentional I will WAIT FOR YOU!!

Seated In Heavenly Places!! There is a place that is unknown to me A place where earthly riches have no comparison This place was not created for me based on my works or my good deeds This place wasn't manifest that man can take credit for This place is not open for bribery or vain babblings This place is not based on the color of your skin Or the dexterity of your verbiage This place is not a man-made contractual clause It can't be voted on by the majority Or vetoed by the Senate derailing wrangling This place was thought of and brought into existence Before reasoning or birthing of humanity. This place was not in accordance with earthly limitations or monarchy assumptions of transferable power This place is an ode of deep expression Entwined in the rarest of treasures.... Call Grace!! His GRACE has given to us an abundance And Looked beyond our constant companion to transgression Or vain attempts at self-righteousness and our willful wedlock to pride. Grace can't be KNOWN by any other name than THE CHRIST!! For HIS sacrifice unraveled the sphere of Satan and destroyed his defenses By setting captivity free For though we were dead in sin God gave a remedy to salvage us For He loved us I now have this right to behold the Beauty of His Glory The Magnificence of His Power The Horizontal to Vertical of His Truth The Comfort of His Spirit And the Empowerment of His Anointing All is being done That we may have access to His throne Through The Only Begotten Son. Now Get in position So you Receive your inheritance By declaring that your bonds have been broken Not tomorrow But Right now Call on your Heavenly host to War and defend you For He has prepared this place of rest for all those who PUT THEIR TRUST IN HIM Come and take your seat!!

Early In The Morning!! Early In The Morning Patricia S. Miller Early in the morning Father, I will seek You I will sing of your wondrous works in all the earth Early in the morning I will lift my voice and say there is none like You Early in the morning I will extol your name and be strengthened by You For you are God alone Early in the morning I will meditate upon your word and find solace in You Yes, God early will I seek You Early in the morning I will remember your promises I will write them upon my hearts door I will love on You With a grateful heart of praise do I sing to You Yes, God early will I seek You Early in the morning I'm surrounded by You Captured by Your presence And engulfed by Your mercy Early in the morning You whisper sweet words of encouragement To assure me of Your love towards me Yes, God early will I seek You Early in the morning You commune with me You tell me that I'm more than a conqueror That I can and will win You remind me that Your love is steadfast towards me In whatever situation, I may face Early in the morning You tell me to keep my mind stayed on You And to never forget that You will always do what's best for me Even when I can't trace You Yes, God early will I seek You And I will remember Who I am in You That I am the apple of Your eye That I am chosen and favored I am the daughter of The King For Early in the morning I will seek you.

Dear Younger Me!! Dear Younger Me Patricia S. Miller Dear Younger me.. #life was so carelessly free #life was filled with so many possibilities So many enchanting illusions For the world was BIG and vast And you could do whatever you want Dear Younger me... You seeked adventure in being adventurous You sought for the untouchable and unthinkable You desired more than want you could handle #life was a game played by your rules alone Dear Younger me... Forbidden fruit tasted so sweet Pleasures of #life was ripe for the picking Regard for tomorrow was a fallacy an addendum you desired never to see Dear Younger me.... You cared not for your safety or the safety of others You lied and cheated with the ease of breeze You held to the highest of truths which was your OWN Your limitation had no limits You were in control.... Always! Dear Younger me... Your garden became entangled with weeds Of intriguing persuasion That came from every direction Dear Younger me... Every look and gesture created a symphony of emotions Emotions that was matched with anticipation and longings Emotions that were the perquisite for misbehaving badly For sneaking out and sneaking in In search for that ideal High to get you through the week But.... Dear Younger me.. Can I talk to you? Can I tell you the truth? Who ARE YOU?? I am OLDER YOU!! Did I tell you that your choices and decisions Affected our FUTURE? Did I tell you that engaging in heightened activities Gave me an identity crisis Did I tell you that the thought of holistic living scared me So much that I shunned it Dear Younger me... Did I tell you how much my heart became a stomping ground Beaten with countless transfers of hurt Did I tell you that doors of intimacy that shouldn't have been open had me bound. Did I tell you that togetherness was a royality that I couldn't afford Did I also tell you that intergrity became a word that betrayed me to my face? Dear Younger me.... Did I tell you that your abnormal became my normal Did I tell you that your adjacent became the greeting interval to intricate embellishments Your cascading antics left me inebriated and suicidal. Did I tell you that truth became a taboo An unspoken language That made me want to regurgitate at the proximity of its host Dear Younger me... Did I tell you that because you gave so freely That cautionary became my BEST friend Did I tell you that because of ill choices Judious advice kept me sheltered from others Dear Younger me... Because you took dazzling arrays and used them as a decoy of plot And weaponized them to fit each target That came into your sphere I had to learn how to love again To love The treasure from within Dear Younger me... Please don't think that this is a speech of fine bewilderment That's now telling on you Please don't think that I've forgotten all about you Please don't feel or think that this is a decorum allure It is simply the Truth of all that I had to go through Because of you... If you only knew... Would you have warned me somehow? Could you have left me a message in a bottle? Telling me to defer playing the role of one so defiant If you could've traveled back in time Would you've prevented me from following that dreadful delude? Dear Younger me.. In some regard I'm thankful for the role you played You see I wouldn't have ever known that by falling and falling That I could ever get back up You see I wouldn't have known that the hand Of God was always upon my #life Even when "WE" were in our mess I wouldn't have known that I am worthy of love And to be held and cherish Had I not been heart broken Dear Younger me.... There's no need to worry or be concerned For I have a brighter Present And a greater Future God came in And he... Turned my world which was upside down To now be RIGHT-side up For He alone came in and completed in me what no one else could do You see younger me... He cleansed and washed me He set me free From the dungeon "You" us in He forgave me And gave me purpose And told me I would never be KNOW by that name again And what name was that??? I'm so glad you asked!! Liar, Cheater, Promiscuous, Nothing, Deceiver. So what is your name now? I am A Daughter of the King An Heir to all that Belongs to Him A Royal Priesthood A Chosen Generation I'm the Apple of His Eyes I'm seated with Him in Heavenly Places I'm Loved by Him Dear Younger me... I'm Older Wiser, Stronger, Redefined YOU!! Your FUTURE is SECURED!!