I hate how I can only write when I am in love or heartbroken

My Mind "Close your eyes." My mind tells me "Close your eyes." How hard could it be? I stare at the ceiling Then BAM out of nowhere I see my fist on my leg How did that bruise get there? I'm going insane That has to be it How else could I explain Constantly feeling bit Bugs are crawling All over my face I'm mentally unstable That is my case What do I do? How do I fix it? I don't think it's that simple No, not one little bit. **sorry this #poem is very "all over the place" but that just helps describe how my mind feels right now.**

Do you ever lose feelings for an ex?

Honestly Honestly, I wish you would at least try to see it from my point of view. Honestly, I wish you weren't such a goody two shoes. Honestly, you never think twice about tearing me down. Honestly, no matter what I do, you shake your head and frown. Honestly, we're two different people and you don't understand. Honestly, it bothers me that you just do what pleases everyone else on command. Honestly, the difference between you and I is fact. Honestly, I'm never going to tell you any of that

Can't Be Me I put on my makeup I wear a new dress I smile for the picture But cannot confess The makeup is gross The dress doesn't feel right The smile is so fake But it's not worth the fight I'll pretend to be happy I'll act like its fun I'll do it for the family But inside, I'm so done This isn't who I am This isn't want I want This feels so uncomfortable But I just can't be blunt You don't like the real me You hate my t-shirts You scoff at my gym shorts But you don't realize it hurts So act like it's all me So say you're not wrong So pretend I'm the burden Because I've put up with it this long