All A Big Blurrr And as I drive my mind loses all sense of motion The world goes on my world stops before me I'm glaring straight through I didn't miss you I didn't like you Yes it was all a little to easy And now here comes the pain Im getting tired of wearing this smile everyday Truth is I'm lost I get urges to run and hug you Truth is everyday my body gets weaker I mean wouldn't you ? If you lost your back bone Everyone was so shocked at how well I took it I was shocked the most But now it's hit me Now it's sunk in And I feel sick I feel lost And I feel like I need you I hate you Why Dyu do this to me You said you loved me Why did you let this happen Why Dyu let it get this far I regret every living memory that ever involved you My weakness is attachment So losing hurts Hurts a little more everyday They say it gets better in time So why is it getting worse for me I wana clean slate I wana start fresh I wana go back But #life's a test and there's no turning back So I Gota take it as it comes Make the most while it lasts Cause it feels like falling skies But really I'm a lucky one #love #loss #lucky #sad #happy #falling #why #lost #sensation

Found & Lost They say you lose And then you'll find But in my shoes It happened in rewind I was fine Fine as in Devine I found you with no intent Which made me more content I held you tight Simply cause it felt right And then a patter hit a puddle A leaf soured to the ground A fire blazed out And you were nowhere to be found Didn't want you no more What was all this for filled me with dreams & then drained me hollow My chest tightens with every thoughtful swallow My chins up high My hearts sank low I silent every sigh Cause only I know #found then #lost #love

One Decision - My Whole #life When you're left to make a decision When the decision leaves you no choice When your decision is about to change your #life When your decision chewed your hope When your decision spat out your dreams When your decision blurred your future When your decision stabs you right through When your decision feels a little like this When your path narrows as you walk along When the cotton clouds you were once wrapped in Begin to melt like candy floss in your mouth When you wake up in search for warmth When your stinging eyes refuse to sleep When you hold your chin high When your convinced you're fine When you wear an old smile when you dread going to sleep Simply coz its hard to breath My decision tore my world in two My decision turnt my #life blue Better to realise now than never As my decision gave me a huge relief My decision will save me much grief The picture I painted of my future was a fantasy I was too busy living a Disney movie But this what's happening now is my true reality My decision - is that- You and me will never be

(MUST'READ) The Puppet Show World ! As a little girl I was made to believe the world was safe I was told the only thing bad was when I'd misbehave I still grew scared of the big wide world As every night in my bed I curled I thought and thought of all dangerous men Coz they scared me way back then Then I grew to realise It was all paranoid childhood But soon after my eyes opened & I understood The world is a dark place and always has been The darkness lies alive under the bright sun screen Whatever I read and watch is simply a theatre production All mind games full of seduction So cleverly were made to be puppets And 99% follow on as muppets Listen close , come here Kneel down give me your ear Let me whisper the truth behind the scummy politicians They're all in it together it's a clear vision If you don't understand me It's because you lack knowledge I don't blame you, you didn't chose to be brainwashed in school or college But there's a huge game being played Do you not see innocent children being slayed Several places including Syria Bosnia and Palestine We're sitting here doing jus fine Is it not our duty to stop what's monstrously spreading But we carry on dreaming of our graduation and wedding Blind to what goes on Let me tell u about Syria this is real news As we laugh and eat there's a man on the loose Did I say man? Sorry I meant beast This beast Caged men and treated them like animals or less Make them torture rape and kill - horrendously emotionless Bashar is inhumane, his spraying bullets at families, As we shop down self ridges top shop & hamilies I don't blame you for not knowing the truth After all the news hide and twist it in their booth A widows 3 kids shot before her eyes And the fourth taken away with the evil guys They return the next morning and nail his head to the door Now tell me IS THIS NOT LIKE THE MOVIE SAW? How can we sit and just accept what's happening When 20,000 have died in Syria Obamas "concerned" oh we'll that changes so much The stories are endless as such And these stories are first hand of someone from there So don't you dare be a fool and not give a care Coz if it was you you would be as helpless as them A father made to watch his wife get raped his children ad parents killed - poor men I'm sitting down London far far away And I feel just as useless as tears flood my face But I realised words can spread like a virus Just as the horror movie is spread by that ruler oh so tyrant Research what I speak of For surely enough evidence is there A brave woman got raped and made a video after to show her dispair Calling for help from the world And the world makes me and you So share learn preach and spread, Help the world revive - wake up - no more playing dead !

Losing Loss Losing a friend Losing a fight Losing a job Losing your right Losing a pinky Losing a £20 note Losing a hanky Losing hope Losing memory Losing someone Losing a story Losing a gun Losing a sock Losing my home Losing time Losing by one goal Losing you, Losing me losing made me blind I could not see - How bad Im losing my mind :::