So four weeks ago five on Tuesday I put up a status on facebook saying like for a chat dean liked it so I texted him I had seen him before his pictures on Facebook and all that and he was really Goodlooking and seemed really nice but I was always afraid to text him because I thought he would think I'm some creep but that night when he liked my status I was really happy and I started texting him we started sending and all that he is so nice and I don't think I've ever been so upset over a boy I knew I would really get attached to him I didn't know why but I just really started liking him and we have been texting ever since then were after been through so much together were after having so many ups and downs but who doesn't we always got through them all together and came out stronger he's the first boy I've really liked in ages there's just something I really like about him I honestly would be lost without him he always makes me feel better and he never fails to put a smile on my face I know I have been a bitch to him when I was pissed off but I really didn't mean to take it out on him he doesn't realise how happy I have been since he started liking me and me and him started talking it breaks my heart when we fight but we were getting on well then one night it started again ... We weren't really getting on that night my friend told me stuff I asked her about it ..it started a fight I messed up everything again .. It was all my fault I got a message a little while later from dean saying he needed a break he's not meeting anyone for a while .. The minute I seen that message I burst into tears ... I knew it was all my fault I ruined Eveything again between me and him I don't think he likes me anymore but for me I still like him a lot it's not gonna be easy anymore to think that me and him could be done is a horrible feeling tbh ... I don't think I'll ever like anyone as much as I liked dean he meant everything to me .. Now I've lost him .. I don't know what to do anymore I just needed to get all that off my chest ...