8:30 am - it was another good start to the morning. I had to yell at the kids a few times of course. Matts about to make me an instant breakfast and then hopefully I'll make it to the grocery store for the first time in weeks. 120 pm - Matt and I ended up having sex a couple hours later. It felt good to be close to him. However all day I've been feeling a little discontent and unfocused. Haven't done any chores, I still have yet to go to the grocery store. Maybe a little booze that Matt just brought me will take away this kind of yuck feeling I have. I hope this isn't the start of any mania. We know what follows after that. 50 pm - So I ended up doing shit today. I let the kids run all over me while I fucked around on the iPad. It doesn't me I'm going down again does it?
