Existence I don't live... Every breath I get don't feel real My #life doesn't feel like it's mine Every move I've made, every thing I do I don't feel anything I just do what seems right Or what is the next step I'm an outsider in my own #life A stranger to myself My stomach turns and I just want to purge myself of myself I want to banish this existence This cannot be #life..... So why is this #life that is to be mine like this, Why does it feel like what is mine isn't... The times I feel the air filling my lungs, When the smile on my face begins to hurt, When the skip in my step makes me feel like my feet never touch the ground For the little things like when I think I've found my home My place in the real world But again this madness comes into my head and makes me an outcast I have this battle in me that isn't going to end well It isn't of good and evil... I fight myself to make me happy Maybe there are three people in me... The knight that tries but never quite succeeds. The witch, who in her misery ensure nothing but darkness for me. And the worst person of all This victim... Why can't you find strength? Why can't you find courage? Why are you so stupid that you remain in this misery? You are an impartial failure watching a battle you know you can end Why are you just sitting in this corner... Covered in webs and mould.... What are you waiting for? You've spent your #life making sure the knight feels relevant And trying to bring joy to the miserable witch You have spent all this time living day by day You need a plan... Something to look forward to.... Without the fear of whether it's right for the knight or witch No need to care for every other person.... Don't give yourself only negative time Find the heart to chase the impossible And possibly for once, FEEL happiness Another impossibility you should strive to make possible.... Good luck finding the end of your cold nightmare It is possible there is no end.... But you deserve, for once, to have hope That there is a light And the darkness will end.. Please, stop this pain.... It's too dark and cold Release us from this unending #lifelessness Love yourself..... It is possible to love...