Memory Splinters All these memory splinters from a long time ago, I am stuck here now, because there was always just you. I gave you my heart I gave you my trust, I gave you my body, I gave you my lust. You told me you love me, I knew it was a lie, I ignored my thoughts, for asking to shy. You thought I was stupid, couldn’t read you like a book, I’m sorry darling all I needed to know was just in your look. I’m over you now, surely won’t read this story again, But what about all these wounds which will still remain? In helpless rage I scream out your name, like it was you I could blame. Mad desperateness crawling up my throat, They let me say all the wrong words, I want you to know that it hurts! You wake them up, these insecurity voices, loud inside my head, Now I want to be skinny, beautiful just not me - and can’t sleep in my bed. Starving myself, changing my look, cutting myself without even using a knife, Can’t look in the mirror, what a worthless #life. Oh heavy heart, oh tremendous pain, Why I am suffering, I thought we were the same. Chips in her nail polish, the hair was undone, That was her, that was what he made her become. Not even close she was to what he called perfection, But therefore far away from what she was once And there was no help, no protection. Day after day you could watch her decay, People asked what happened, though didn’t know what to say. Like an injured bone, carrying herself through #life, One day she decided it was enough, she wanted to end this strife. Her grave, it was a lonely spot, I wish you could have seen, what I saw in you, but you did not. You’ve always been perfect, you’ve always been kind, Beautiful was your look and also your mind. I couldn’t save you, not with money or gold, Why you could not do once, what you have been told? At least I tried.