Memory Splinters All these memory splinters from a long time ago, I am stuck here now, because there was always just you. I gave you my heart I gave you my trust, I gave you my body, I gave you my lust. You told me you love me, I knew it was a lie, I ignored my thoughts, for asking to shy. You thought I was stupid, couldn’t read you like a book, I’m sorry darling all I needed to know was just in your look. I’m over you now, surely won’t read this story again, But what about all these wounds which will still remain? In helpless rage I scream out your name, like it was you I could blame. Mad desperateness crawling up my throat, They let me say all the wrong words, I want you to know that it hurts! You wake them up, these insecurity voices, loud inside my head, Now I want to be skinny, beautiful just not me - and can’t sleep in my bed. Starving myself, changing my look, cutting myself without even using a knife, Can’t look in the mirror, what a worthless #life. Oh heavy heart, oh tremendous pain, Why I am suffering, I thought we were the same. Chips in her nail polish, the hair was undone, That was her, that was what he made her become. Not even close she was to what he called perfection, But therefore far away from what she was once And there was no help, no protection. Day after day you could watch her decay, People asked what happened, though didn’t know what to say. Like an injured bone, carrying herself through #life, One day she decided it was enough, she wanted to end this strife. Her grave, it was a lonely spot, I wish you could have seen, what I saw in you, but you did not. You’ve always been perfect, you’ve always been kind, Beautiful was your look and also your mind. I couldn’t save you, not with money or gold, Why you could not do once, what you have been told? At least I tried.

Arguments You have been alone for such a long time, But that’s surely not a crime. A crime is your utter ignorance towards me, Every time after an argument – how can that be? I want to talk to you so much about it, Why my spoken words just won’t fit? Fit into your head and into your mind, Since when did you become so blind? So blind that you can’t see, How beautiful the two of us could be. Forever together, Me and you, All my feelings for you always were true. And now I’m sitting here cutting my wrist, Yet another vein I have missed. What have you done to me? Why are you so cruel? I’m crying loud behind the locked door, Alone and on my own sitting on the floor. There’s still hope, hope that you will care, But there’s something else than that already in the air. It is your ignorance! And so I lost all my hope as we lay in separate beds, You turned your back on me, leaving my heart in shreds. You don’t like to argue, I know, and it was already late, Fair enough, but that doesn’t explain the spread of hate. And as you leave me alone with these thought in dark nights, I’m thinking to myself you have been alone for such a long time.

Him And Her He almost fell in love With a broken girl, A cigarette between her lips And a drink in her hands. A wandering mind, A travelling soul, Wondering where her final destination is. With every word she said With every touch of her skin He could see the light he has ever seen. Not too broken, Kind of cute, A little beautiful disaster. Rib bones and scars, With pretty green eyes. So many stories to tell, That no one ever was allowed to listen to. Maybe that’s why he thought she was special Or was it only because no one ever touched him like that So she gave him her heart wrapped up in trust. It was something he just couldn’t give back. But then he told her lies! All these lies! How beautiful she was! How kind she was! How smart she was! The first person he ever told he loved her she was! All these things so fair and beautiful, An utter wonderland behind a mirror. But tell me please! How much heaven can you fit between two hearts? And then he almost fell in love with every little thing That made him think of her. Every puff of smoke. Every drink in her hand. The stories she told. Stories all about them, With memories rolling down her cheeks, From bloodshot eyes. And taking deep breaths with blackened lungs Which is ironic enough. But she’s not asking for any permissions! It’s like she’s always been dead anyway With lost hopes She may asking him one day for his forgiveness But he won’t be there to save her. Because in this world where sex and drugs are easy to get, He won’t need to stick together with her. There are so many other hers, Far too willing to swallow his everyday expressions. Cheap and greedy he’s telling them what they want to hear, trying to find a path or a journey, Because what nobody knows is: He hasn’t found his final destination either.

A #lifetime's End I had a beautiful dream of us last night; Held together by wrinkled hands; Our eyes filled with utter warm light. And as we walk we understand, There are places in your heart you don't even know; Until you hold your soulmate's hand. Each step taking us closer to our very last sunset, Smiling, our feets slowly sinking in the sand; Taking long, deep breaths as if we would try to catch them with a net. And as we reached the end of our path, we can see #life never has been about money or property; It has always been about the two of us; And this is exactly how it should be. Thanks for the lovely walk.

Losing You You picked me up, You broke me down. Again it is me feeling sad and numb while walking through my town. Suddenly everything seems so wrong, And even my heart doesn't know where to belong. How could that all happen so quick - Especially our feelings once were so big. Here I am again - walking with tired eyes, Telling myself more cruel lies. They say don't believe what you're telling yourself so late at night, Nobody ever has won such a fight. But did they ever have cruel thoughts during the day? I can tell - They are a so much bigger decay! They won't let you live, They won't let you die, I can't even cry! Maybe I'm already losing this fight.