Still Lonely I've done the right thing by saying goodbye. I committed my #life to my family, and I try. So much good has come through this pain. So why do I want to go back again? I've learned to love my spouse in a whole new way And #life is so good. I'll never again stray. But when it's dark and I look at what's real, Loneliness is what I feel. There's no logic to this as I'm loved by many. My spouse works hard to show me he loves me. I have friends who are true and loving family galore, So why oh why do I always need more? I know the answer but it's taboo to say, I left it all behind at boot camp that day. I made a promise to God, Myself, and J, I would never betray us. There's no earthly way. But on this simple page I need to confess, My soul is so lonely and I'm living with less. I'm doing what's right and so is he But we know we are soul mates who are meant to be. He's the love of my #life, but I love J too, I honestly sometimes don't know what I'll do. I'm living the #life God created me to live, But I pray everyday for Him to give A chance for us to be together, When the time is right. I can't bear never. I've accepted this loneliness as a debt I must pay, But oh how I wish I was in his arms today.