Tired For a little while I've been pretty tired. Tired of people; family, friends, my boyfriend. Tired of things I use to love; dancing, writing, drawing, sculpting. Tired. I'm just tired. I want to stay in my bed and sleep. I'm tired of being around people and I want to be left alone. I don't want to be around my family, friends, co-workers, classmates, the old lady up the street, teachers, anyone. I want to be alone all the time. I'm sad and I don't know why. I have an amazing and loving family. I have fantastic and supportive friends. I have a boyfriend who is the sweetest person I've ever had the pleasure of meeting and he even says he loves me (although I'm not quite there). Everyone around me makes me feel loved, so why do I feel so alone? I have no reason to be sad. No one has ever really hurt me, emotionally or physically. I'm not scarred from any traumatic experience. I'm doing well in school and I have a job. Sure in stressed with college stuff and I really hate fast food, but this is normal for any 18 year old. So why am I unhappy? My best friend was adopted from India. He mother was a 17 yea old prostitute and her current parents abuse her. Her dad beats her while her mom is verbally abusive. They are devices and she lives with her mom, but things are still hard for her. She use to cut her wrists and I think she's still depressed, but we all help her through it. She has a reason to e sad. I don't. So why am I sad? I just want to cry. I feel like I can cry at any second of the day. I'm being pushed close to the ends and ill go over at any second, but I'm good at holding on until that night when I cry in my bed. I have nothing to be ungrateful for and I have no reason to be unhappy. So why so why do I want to cry? And no, this isn't a #poem or story I'm legitimately asking for someone to talk to.