Death is not today Today I opened my eyes to something new. Yesterday was grey and hollow. I couldn't see anything I wanted to live for. My stomach felt like it was turning around and around making me dizzy, and tired. But today.......I woke up in the sunlight and I didn't feel pain that I couldn't easily handle. I appreciated everything that I saw and it was all beautiful and yellow. Not blinding, just right. I was able to be free for the first time ever and I was still alive.