Where The Stars Disappear To Waiting was alright. The lights were a little bright and seemed to want to blind you only to keep the tears from falling, they dried out your eyes and that made me laugh. The hallways were long and wide, enough room to fit a whole wreckage of calamity. Of course the people, the ones who stood in corners and yelled or giggled or talked to their little friends, they were the fun ones, the ones that made me cry because they wouldn't look right, but the ones who made me smile because they would share with me their minds. We ate together. The ones like me. Pudding. They liked to serve us that. And those little juice boxes, those were my favorite, I shared those with Gally Justin. Of course I cried a lot just because it was all I knew how to do without getting in trouble. Or something. We didn't get into trouble a lot but I knew what made someone angry or what made them irritated. Not that anyone here could help it. There was an attendant here once who said "Erin, you have great potential. Would you like to put that use?" I can't speak but I can think and nod and suck. The last part he appreciated the most and I didn't mind. Then he was fired for sticking his extra hardware into Gally Justin, she screamed a lot. I merely laid and would've never tattled. That's when I began to hate Gally Justice. No one had ever been interested in me like that attendant and she just took him away from me. That nasty bitch. Ugly and smart, that's what she was. She made up for it by sneaking in a peanut butter sandwich and getting me sent to the hospital, the actual on. Not this one where they always check for your wrist in my ward. I liked this hospital better. I can hear people throwing up in the next room or coughing up a lung in the other. I learn which nurses are sleeping with which doctors, which doctors have wives and concubines, which medical students will does you up to high heaven, which ones will make physical contact out of caring and which ones out of longing. The desperate ones are everywhere. I wish I could talk.