Cursed For #life (I just wanted to say that I'm really sorry for the delay, I've have been very busy) Sam it was saturday morning so that means no summer riding classes, for Joey, and date night with Grace was yesterday, no play dates... “what am I thinking!” I mumbled to myself, “I sound like a soccer mom...” I added rolling out of bed, “Maybe we’ll go to the park today,” I said to nobody. I looked at the clock and yawned. it was 9:23 A.M. so that means the girls will be getting up in around 40 minutes or so. That gave me some extra time to make breakfast, and pack a bag for the park. That is, if the girls want to go. Maybe I’ll invite Grace too? nah, I’m pretty sure she’s got something planned today, she told me something about it yesterday. I yawned loudly and stretched when I got to my bathroom. I looked in the mirror and sighed... “I really need to go to the gym... I look like I’m dying from malnutrition.” I then quickly did my morning stuff and then walked to the kitchen to make breakfast for me, and the girls. I look in the fridge... “hmmm, nothing?” I groaned, Then checked the pantry. I scanned the shelves and found apples, canned fruit, jam, and bread. Then Joey came downstairs. “Goodmowning bwothew.” She said mid-yawn. I chuckled picking her up. “Hey sweetie, want some toast with jam?” I asked as she rubbed her eyes. She nodded, then I set her down into one of the chairs. I poked my head into the pantry to get the very last piece of bread, (Well beside the heel... We always feed those to the ducks at the pond whenever we go to the park). I took the heels and tucked them into a plastic baggy, as I did that I popped the piece of toast into the toaster. Just as I did that my phone vibrated in my jean pocket, I pulled it out and checked who it was, at the same time grabbing an apple and taking a bite. It was Grace: “Hey Sammy babe, do you wanna hang later ” I smiled, I knew what she meant... And oh did it sound nice, I really needed to let go of this stress I was feeling. I texted back taking another bite of my apple Sam: “Oh ya, come over at 10, I’ll be waiting ” I She texted back a few seconds later with a heart symbol and a smiley face. I rolled my eyes, She was so cute. I know, I’m only fifteen, and I should have probably waited, but... I don’t know, my #life was never a great #life, I was left with a mother that truly hated every single one of her children except my older sister Lilly. So I fell into a lot of ---- when I was about thirteen. That was my first party, I went with my buddies older cousin, he was able to slip us some drinks and I got wasted, I ended up losing my virginity to a fourteen year old girl named Maddie. It was great by the way, and I could tell she was very experienced... Anyway, I ended up getting pulled into that stuff, I used woman, and drank a lot. I do feel bad for hurting so many young girls, and I do regret always being drunk... But then I met grace, and she helped me out. She showed me what a real relationship was like, and helped me stop drinking... I was only thirteen and fourteen... Only thirteen and fourteen! I dropped all contact with my buddies cousin, and ended everything. Well not fully, I obviously still have a moderately active sex #life, in fact Grace was a virgin before I met her, but don’t worry, I waited until she thought she was fully ready. I knocked myself out of my memories when I heard the toaster pop. “The toast is weady bwothew!” She shouted. She must have been hungry... I pulled the bread out of the toaster, then spread butter and jam across the top of it, then placed it on a paper plate, “Here you go” I said, smiling. She thanked me and started eating. I quickly finished my apple and then packed the rest of the bag for the park. “Watcha doin?” Joey asked wiping her face and throwing her plate away. “Oh I forgot to tell you!” I said zipping the backpack shut, “We are going to the park today!” I exclaimed clapping my hands together. She grinned from ear to ear, “WEALLY?!?” She squealed happily I Smiled, “Yes, so go get your doll, and bring Frankie down for me, okay?” She nodded sprinting upstairs. I pulled my jacket on and waited for Joey and Frankie to come back down. After about five minutes Joey appeared with Frankie in her arms. “Oh, Joey, you got her dressed, that was very nice of you!” I took Frankie from Joey and placed her comfortable in my makeshift basket-car seat-carrier-thing that I made for her... (we don’t have the money for any real baby things). I tucked her in with a few blanket and then set her Other, Rose, beside her. Rose is just a temporary name, just until Frankie is old enough to choose a permanent name for her Other. Frankie was cursed with the red fox, she had silky blonde hair one green eye, and one blue eye, she was very petite and got most all of her looks from our father. After I got Frankie and Rose situated, we set off.