I Couldn't Love Without Them Okay, hello. I just wanted to say something real quick. I'm 11 years old and my mum and dad both did drugs and drunk, and things like that. My mum died when I was 2 months old, I was too young to understand what the hell happened, so I went along with it, but I now live with my auntie and uncle. When I was 3 apparently my auntie told me she wasn't my real mum, which broke me and I never spoke to her again, trust me it took a long time to forgive her from that! And my mum and dad were so drunk, they never cared about me. I felt really alone. I feel really alone. I wanna walk around and be like all the other kids, with a mum that cared about them, real mums. Not aunties. I wanna be with my mum. I would often look into the bathroom mirror and cry to a song called Kiss The Rain by Yiruma. It's a beautiful song, crying never helped, everyone says their sorry, are they really though? But anyway, I know this is gonna sound cheesy but I feel the 5 people I couldn't live without are not any family members. They're a massive part of a Fanmily. Called #TWFanmily. We're all family, especially the fans, we care for each other, but the 5 people are The Wanted themselves. When I met Nathan Sykes, my sister went and spoke to him, but after about an hour he came over to me and asked me why I was crying. Of course I told him everything that I had went through. He kissed my lips and hugged me and told me the most kindest, most comforting thing I'd ever heard. '"Ciara Nicole Paige Brown. You are the most beautiful person I've seen in a long time, believe me. You're stunning for 11! I know the things you've gone through are the most horrible things in #life and you must feel terrible about yourself, but me and the guys will never forget you because you're an amazing person who needs loads of friends because you're really brave to be even able to say this to anyone, or explain should I say. You seem like a lovely person and I love hanging out with you but I hate seeing you like this! I am so sorry for what has happened in the past but of you ever need help you can always come to me and the guys okay? You're so strong and, I know you feel weak but you're not. You're the strongest person here, and you know that! And whatever happens were gonna be here for you through thick and thin no matter the costs, because we love you like a sister, Ciara. Never forget it babe, never forget it." And Nathan's words really helped me get through what I got through now, where I am talking to you today. If it wasn't for him I would not have been here on this site. Writing for everyone, which is one of the things I love to do! And through all the things the guys have been through especially it really makes me happy knowing they care for me and loads of other people because they're the most kind people I've known, the fame HASEN'T got to them and they still have their loving souls in them. And I dunno what I would do without them because my #life used to be video games and that was it. They've opened a massive hole in my heart and showed me what really matters. Now I have singles, albums and concerts to look forward to and I don't know where I would be today without them. I love them with all my heart and could never break that love for my whole existence. Guys, I love you. And you may have read my The Islands? They are all my word no copy and paste at all! I am thinking of writing loads more and want to know what you guys think! X