Relationships Sure, relationships are pretty messed up, but we'll all come to this one high school crush, or this one onlooker boy that wolf whistles at us along the street, but we'll, as girls or boys, as humans really, never know the real purpose of love or marriage or even kids! Especially when it comes to children; I feel there are way to many teen pregnancies going on because many teen girls have no idea what they're getting themselves into, I've been there done that and it feels like shit basically, knowing you've wasted your whole #life, I mean is it really the best way to go into your #life? Being a slut? Not to me anyway. I just wanna understand why you would lose your virginity at such a young age you don't even know what the thing is? "Live your #life to the fullest!" Is what my mother always told me, and that's what I've done, what I'm doing, right here and right now. So it's a good idea to always think about your actions before you take the chance into real motherhood. Marriage; LIKE HELL MARRIAGE IS A BIG STRESSFUL THING! Most people rush into it, people believe sex before marriage is a sin, some believe marriage never matters, I feel if you're in a relationship with someone you feel extended feelings for you should always express them the best way you can, no matter how frightened you'll get by them, and yeah, you'll mess up, like I have, like anyone will and has, sadly that's just a part of #life which is the shit everyone will go through now and then, big or small. But I feel you should always start of with a steady relationship before committing a confession to your loved one like this. Over all relations; Telling someone else, or even yourself in fact that you like someone could probably be the about the most terrifying thing a girl or boy will ever go through. Especially me, I'm frankly terrified of relationships not just with boys, because of what's happened to my past and how it's played on me. I feel you're more mature and more ready for stuff by the experiences you've had in #life, say if someone got married at sixteen they wouldn't really know what they actually wanted it, they'd just think it was a popular thing to do while you were a teen girl or boy, like the 'Cup Song' for example, that spread from site to site, video to video, the 'Cup Song' is kinda like marriage, relations, and kids, it's like a mental and physical craze that teens will go through. The 'Cup Song' went high in the charts of popularity pretty fast, but now it's kinda just boring, everyone's off that now and into their natural lives again, that's basically over all topping up relationships, marriage will become a pretty popular thing one time, everyone will think it's cool to be married at the age of like 11, and then it'll die down and teens and other people may actually finally realise what a waste of #life marriage is if you don't take it for granted. Marriage is like a gift, say if you had the power to touch a photo and automatically see what happened to the people in the past of that photo, that would be a so called 'gift' .This is what marriage is. When you're married it sticks with you and your entire #life and never leaves, no matter how much you will it to, it'll always be there no matter the cost, that's why marriage can be such a big mistake if its not taken seriously and just looked at as a joke. So basically what I'm putting out there to anyone is that, sure, your gonna run into a heck of a lot of mistakes but you'll only learn by what kills you inside, if you know your weaknesses you know your strengths.'

Sorry! Sorry for not uploading, please forgive me I just had a lot of things to so with family issues! Xxxx

Does It Make Me A Bad Person? I like in ghosts. I like blood, and aren't afraid to see it. I like to see people break their bones. (WHAT? IT'S FUNNY WHEN YOU SEE A GROWN MAN CRY FROM BREAKING HIS ARM!) I like certain types of death. I like playing Piano. I like writing. I like reading. I dislike animal abuse. I dislike skanks. (Sorry I had to!) I dislike people who beat up homeless people. I dislike children in Africa who have very little. I dislike that I have too much. I dislike bullies, especially when someone is in a terrible state in #life and someone just comes along as wishes death upon them. Does this make me a bad person?

I Couldn't Love Without Them Okay, hello. I just wanted to say something real quick. I'm 11 years old and my mum and dad both did drugs and drunk, and things like that. My mum died when I was 2 months old, I was too young to understand what the hell happened, so I went along with it, but I now live with my auntie and uncle. When I was 3 apparently my auntie told me she wasn't my real mum, which broke me and I never spoke to her again, trust me it took a long time to forgive her from that! And my mum and dad were so drunk, they never cared about me. I felt really alone. I feel really alone. I wanna walk around and be like all the other kids, with a mum that cared about them, real mums. Not aunties. I wanna be with my mum. I would often look into the bathroom mirror and cry to a song called Kiss The Rain by Yiruma. It's a beautiful song, crying never helped, everyone says their sorry, are they really though? But anyway, I know this is gonna sound cheesy but I feel the 5 people I couldn't live without are not any family members. They're a massive part of a Fanmily. Called #TWFanmily. We're all family, especially the fans, we care for each other, but the 5 people are The Wanted themselves. When I met Nathan Sykes, my sister went and spoke to him, but after about an hour he came over to me and asked me why I was crying. Of course I told him everything that I had went through. He kissed my lips and hugged me and told me the most kindest, most comforting thing I'd ever heard. '"Ciara Nicole Paige Brown. You are the most beautiful person I've seen in a long time, believe me. You're stunning for 11! I know the things you've gone through are the most horrible things in #life and you must feel terrible about yourself, but me and the guys will never forget you because you're an amazing person who needs loads of friends because you're really brave to be even able to say this to anyone, or explain should I say. You seem like a lovely person and I love hanging out with you but I hate seeing you like this! I am so sorry for what has happened in the past but of you ever need help you can always come to me and the guys okay? You're so strong and, I know you feel weak but you're not. You're the strongest person here, and you know that! And whatever happens were gonna be here for you through thick and thin no matter the costs, because we love you like a sister, Ciara. Never forget it babe, never forget it." And Nathan's words really helped me get through what I got through now, where I am talking to you today. If it wasn't for him I would not have been here on this site. Writing for everyone, which is one of the things I love to do! And through all the things the guys have been through especially it really makes me happy knowing they care for me and loads of other people because they're the most kind people I've known, the fame HASEN'T got to them and they still have their loving souls in them. And I dunno what I would do without them because my #life used to be video games and that was it. They've opened a massive hole in my heart and showed me what really matters. Now I have singles, albums and concerts to look forward to and I don't know where I would be today without them. I love them with all my heart and could never break that love for my whole existence. Guys, I love you. And you may have read my The Islands? They are all my word no copy and paste at all! I am thinking of writing loads more and want to know what you guys think! X

The Churchyard I walked through the burnt, dead leaves as they crunch under my step. I neared the gravestone, the one I had dreaded to see since this day. I knelt down by it and let the years flash back in my memory. I read the words over and over again. 'Jessica Morrow, age 16, a loving child in memory, loved by all xxx' I sighed, a crow called from behind, it's echoing cries waving the howling wind like a shock out of a volcano. Spurting like its only chance. I felt the earth shake and crumble beneath me as someone approached behind me. I froze still, listening to the calmer wind searching its way through the gnarled trees, tangled and old. As dusk finally set in it became darker as the many scratches and rustles of the bushes swayed gently in the breeze, it almost felt...Calm. But every bush, every tree that rustled seem to shriek '"Danger..Danger...Danger!'" I realised the person was now kneeling beside me, holding a perfect pair of black roses, delivered to Jessica Morrow. As they cried they whispered her name. "Jessica Morrow...You were the most loving person I know who's always in our hearts forever, don't you forget that we'll never leave you." It made me crack a smile... Knowing that people were saying my name again...