LDR Pt 2 Long Distance Relationship (pt2) After talking with some friends, they made me realize that I not go without my mom. So one day she caught me crying, I'm so desperate to meet him, I yelled at her saying that I need to go, it's not a whim, etc. She said that on the weekend we were going to find a date and go. It calmed me. So we found a date, march break. Now when the time comes to buy it, was supposed to be on Monday, she said that she thinks its crazy to go, it's crazy this whole situation, that I should end it and move on... Sigh.. I'm so disappointed.. So upset. Once again she failed me.. Nobody can feel my pain.. How much this hurts me to be so freaking far from him. I need to go. I need him.. I feel so #lifeless. She doesn't understand me. She says I can't love him.. I can't love someone I never shared a moment with.. Sigh.. Then what the heck am I feeling for him.. Always in my mind.. Always in my heart, thinking of him, wanting to go see him. I don't know anymore what to do with my #life. What should I do? Sometimes I just feel like throwing away everything and leave.. She wants me to go see a psychologist. WTF she thinks I'm crazy?? Why she doesn't believe me when I tell her that many people meet online nowadays. It's just that in her freaking era or childhood things weren't the same. Argh. Please what do I have to do? Should I just get the fk outta here or just wait.. and wait for something that could never happen.. People tell me to move on.. But it's not easy.. Not at all. I don't even know of there's someone who will read this.. But how can I move on.. What if I'm missing such a great guy.. Sigh. I'm so unhappy... Well hope you are alright, best wishes to everyone. Love xox.