College Girl: Part 3 Over this past month an awful lot has happened... It started with Robyn and I getting along really well, it was like we'd been friends for years. We could stay up all night talking about anything, everything or nothing and never get bored. She'd tell me how she wished to fall asleep beside me and wake up in my arms, all the things that made me smile uncontrollably. Even when we met up it was cute, she'd let me hold her and we'd spend most of the time cuddling until one of us had to leave. Then we nearly kissed. We both wen't in nervously and both shied away. Since then things haven't quite been the same. She hasn't mentioned wanting me or to be held, barely saying anything of importance. That started getting me scared. I didn't want to end up stuck in the dreaded 'friend zone'. So i've been doing my upmost to keep the love interest going. I think I'm trying in vein. Last week her Grandad fell ill. Not surprisingly, she distanced herself from everything to try to cope. For a week we hardly spoke a sentance to each other. And unfortunately, he passed away yesterday. R.I.P. I did my best to console her and make her smile through it. Hope it worked. Today she seemed to be okay, we started talking like we used to just talking about anything, but then she went out and didn't reply for 4 hours, fair enough, she was busy. But when she finally replied, it was pointless. Basically mirrored what I said. It was hard to reply to. Then it broke down completely about 2 hours ago. I know she isn't asleep because she's using Facebook, so I'm just being ignored. I'm scared that I'm losing her. That she doesn't want all the things that she said. I'm scared that she built my hopes up just to let them down. I'm scared that I won't get my cute, clingy Robyn back. I'm scared she's going to take a dump on my feelings and make it so I'm nothing more than a memory. I hope I'm wrong. I've grown to like her far too much to lose her before it's even begun.