This desperate nostalgia never ceases I search endlessly for what I've lost This longing for the past tears me to pieces I keep the photos but at what cost? How would you know what I'm feeling When inside I'm not sure I do While they're here I can't start healing I'm plagued with things you never knew I could tell you of my endless fear The way people make me want to run The way way I wish to leave when they are near The way they burn like harshest sun I could tell you what I'm thinking About how I'm not sure what I am How beneath the waves I'm sinking Or how sometimes I don't give a damn Bu I won't because your pure and new You don't deserve to bear such things I like remembering when I flew Now I'm an angel with cracked wings