Testing the Waters Since we no longer talk, (we decided we were better off) I’m writing #poems instead. I’ll stare at the blank page and wish to draw you back to me. My love for you will be my secret, but it’s not a secret if the world knows. They see it in my face. I’ve worn you in the wrinkles where my smile used to lay and in the bags under my eyes. I’m no longer sleeping. Well, not since you left the bed. I just can’t seem to get comfortable. It’s been a few hours since I read you on my phone and I’m still debating whether I should cry. I always loved you, but you say you fell out. Now, we’re falling out. I fucking hate you. I wonder what it’d feel like to drown. Maybe I should test it…

Sometimes I Write.. This Time I'm Writing For You I never wanted better; I wanted you. What is it you don't understand? You keep saying,"good things end so we can find something better." What if that's not what I want? You've ended us selfishly Though,I loved you selfless. He lay between your thighs,letting spirit rise. God I fucking hate you. (Iloveyou) The birds outside collapsed like lungs And their notes just hung hollow Like a heart. We're all made of flesh and bone. Some of us have souls. You'll feel this eventually. If water drowns, then cry away. I hope you fucking choke. Wouldn't that irony be perfect? Some days end like this, But I'm wrapped around your name tonight. I wish I could find a way for you to die silently. I really need to kill your memory, Yet i still somewhat need your face. Come offer me that liquid embrace once more. Then I'll allow you to run away like the river. Come home 'till dawn, my love. I don't know if I want you dead or alive; I just know I want you.