think A betrayal so smoothly executed A misguided thought that my pain's been diluted The sudden waves of misery come over me, a mystery Who killed me? Stabbed my back? Hid the knife, said they didn't do jack Shit, I tried to protect myself My dignity, my mental health But there's no point, I've too much pride To back down again, to run and hide But think, just think What did you think would happen?

How Am I? -writing whatever comes to mind when I ask myself how I am- my lungs ache while being ripped apart and my veins are being drained of blood my stomach’s on fire with each pill i take and my heart aches with each beat my brain’s being eaten up by thoughts and voices i wish i never heard they’re scratching at my mind and soul and there’s no way out i feel sick and scared but i know that nobody will help and i know that if i do survive this dreadful night, no one will believe me, nobody at all and if i fail to see the sun rise tomorrow i hope that everyone will go on as normal, as if i were never here, not one thought allowed about me #howami #suicidal tbh

Scrap#4 It's already half past two But I'm still in bed I don't know what to do I'd get up if I had the energy to care But until then I'll just stay right here Didn't get to sleep till three AM It's no surprise I've had to miss school again I'm still in bed I don't know what to do I guess I'll cry until I'm not so blue Everyday the same old routine I'd go out but I lost my house key No need to yell, mum, please You're bringing me down I'm so tired though I slept for twelve hours Every time responsibility shows it's face I cower And on my face a permanent frown Don't understand why I'm feeling so down

100 words Take this monstrosity Take it away from me Not only is it a thief It somehow makes itself intoxicating Don't know how to believe That anybody loves me It's twisted my thoughts My sanity level is naught Just nightmares, no more dreams Love Can't seem to get my way without you All alone Though when you're with me I still feel that I want to die I'm so cold I've never felt that warmth that you so famously allow I guess I'll drop it for now Because it's just bringing me down •• #love #100words ##depression

Scrap#3 I've walked the earth I've swam the sea Unlocked my heart Set my pain free I built a city In my own mind And I'll grown old In my own time I've laughed for years I've shed my tears Don't need approval from you, dear My scars are healed But I still feel That I should be rid of my fears Maybe I could help you see That we're not really scared of anything Maybe I could help you help me Find out how you weaselled your way in Into to my mind, and set me free Maybe you could be the one for me Maybe you could be the one for me I've seen my soul I've payed my toll You broke my fall My heart was torn In two But you barged through An unexpected light Oh, you I've cut my wrists My share of blisters served I need no approval to be heard My mind's not healed That's why I feel That I should be rid of my nerves Maybe I could help you see That we're not really scared of anything Maybe I could help you help me Find my light, and find my king Let you into to my mind, and set me free Maybe you could be the one for me Maybe you could be the one for me