Writing To Fathom
I can only move on from this friendship if I can grieve.
I can walk away if I believe I can't go back.
I'll never go back the pain caused is too severe.
I can't cope with your torment
Your insistence to destroy me
Your knowledge of my fragility made it easy.
This makes you poisonous, toxic and leaves me in pieces you dancing on my soul.
I grieve for the trust I had, the friend I thought I had.
Crazy thoughts run through my mind
Did you plan this massive fall out?
Contrived controlled conversations to recall and twist?
Questions asked and guilt raised to prise precious information.
Secrets prised from my soul for your gratification?
To be used in evidence against me when you deemed the time was right.
Worse pain was to come. I could hardly believe you'd go so low.
Planting seeds of distrust and destruction in beloved friends minds.
Your aim to destroy so vicious and your aim precise.
My soul will rise again and sing, the memory of you will fade and so will the scars you inflicted.
I wish I didn't care. I wish I was indifferent so you couldn't hurt me.
But there is no genie from a lamp to make this go away.
Just time that ticks and passes so slowly by.