Breaking The Silence! When I'm quiet there is definitely something wrong Whether I'm angry at someone or i remembered a bad memory that made me think about all the remorses i've had Not because I'm arrogant or anything but just not to let anyone in my mess Knowing that i have a lots lots of shit in my head I just need someone's shoulder to cry on Someone that will not ask why I'm crying or for what Someone that will hug me tell me:"cry it all out!!everything is gonna be okey" But this ain't gonna happen cause when I'm mad they think that by giving me space I'm gonna calm down and go back to normal But its not the case Avoiding me isn't gonna make anything better it only makes it worst Cause i feel lonely desperate and suicidal!

INTUITION I got that same fear again My stomach was trembling It was a strange feeling I didn't know what was it Uncomfortable and scared i didn't know what to do whether to laught or cry All what i had in mind was: someone is gonna stab my back again Who is it gonna be? Who's next? Everyone around me destroyed me his way!!

Lost Alone I'm sick of people trying to change who i'am Trying to make me something that i'm not I don't know what that is I just wanna know who i'm The real me My real personality Im sick of being scared of everything I know im powerless I know i can't protect myself But deep down i keep convincing myself that i can Daaam Everyone has someone they can trust A best friend A boyfriend A parent But i don't no body seems to understand who i'am what i want how i feel no-one

Fighting My Thoughts I was gonna do the same thing. But deep-down something stopped me I knew it was wrong I knew that people would get hurt if did it I don't know what i was thinking Even tho i was so desperate i didn't But that girl who did it The girl who killed herself Reminded me of all the remorses i felt at that time Everything got back just like old times The dark hole in my heart was opened again I didn't know what to do I wanted to cry but i couldn't Cause then i should explain to everyone around me why I'm crying I needed to talk to someone i trust but nobody was there to listen I was all by myself But something in side me kept telling me: "No one , nothing is wort killing yourself for it . Your strong enough to fight for yourself"

Lost In My Mind I don't know what they wanna create out of me That classy girly girl who knows and can do everything The spoiled brad who get everything she wants is now confused This is what they call me now I don't know what i want I need someone to love Someone who will love me for who i am Someone who will understand me and protect me Someone who will respect me love me Someone i will trust with my #life Someone i will love and carry in my heart for the rest of my #life Someone i will take care of Someone i will defend Someone who will hold my hand and get what i feel by looking at my eyes.. I don't know who that is yet but i just need him next to me I feel so lonely Just knowing that nobody is by my side All this makes me feel sad crazy dumn.... I don't know is there something wrong about me Everybody seems to run away from me No one wants me No one no one Everyone is just using me for their own profites..