Mutated Heart While sprawled across my bed Thoughts linger in the dead of night Each desperately clawing for attention I constantly try to confine them Deep within the dark recesses of my mind But im just a slave to my memories Forever haunted by betrayal and fear All the unforgivable lies mutated my heart No longer open but is sanctioned in solitude Living in the shadows steering clear of the light Resorting to the tainted metal I seek comfort Just for a short moment the physical pain Distracts from the excruciating feelings inside But not even a broken bone could compare To how much pain that is inflicted by words

Painful Nights Lying in my bed Unable to sleep Mind filled with thoughts Every one like acid Burning me With No escape Tossing and Turning With my tears streaming Where's the off To this pain I hate it I hate you I hate people I hate emotions I hate everything

Rant Your words sting me, it feels like a part of me was just ripped off. The searing pain in my eyes, I did my best to hold back my tears. I had so much to say but I was too scared to say it. You blamed our problems on me when I was at not much of a fault as you. In fact it was not my fault at all, it was my mother yet because you let your temper get the best of you, you ended up being blind and hurting me. It's not like it's a first. It's because Of you that I was suicidal in the first place, yet you tell me you don't want me to get hurt. Bull shit. You are oblivious to how your actions affect me. Truth hurts. I'm tired of it, I know your having a rough time but don't take it out on me. Your slowly losing you family to cancer, I know that that's hard and how much it hurts but don't be blind to the people who are still here. Don't dwindle in the past when there's no point. Pay attention. I already have other things to deal with, I don't need this unless I've actually done wrong.

Liar It was love at first sight. You were the only boy that have me butterflies. You liked me back but I moved schools before anything could happen. I never forgot about you. I cried because I wasn't able to see you. There were days where all I could do was repeat your name. Hoping and wishing that I could see you again. I missed you more than you can imagine. I was depressed for months but I slowly started to forget. I never fully forgot. You were still on my mind but not as much as before. I was happy for awhile. Then when summer came, I found out you had an Instagram. I also found out that you had a kik. I was so exited and anxiously awaiting for a response. When you finally started talking to me, it only took the word "hi" to drive me crazy. It was the first time in 2 years that I got to talk to you. I was really happy, I couldn't stop smiling. We talked alot. We got to know more about each other. Then one day it changed. My friend texted him if he liked me, an he said yeah. So we went out. Honestly, I was full of joy. I have no words to describe how happy I was. I truly loved you. We stayed up late texting each other, sending pics ( dont think sick minded!), telling secrets. You told me your secrets, I old you mine. I even told you about my account and about... What I did. You told me that you were going to be with me and help me when I need it. I was overjoyed. We have each other compliments and tried to explain out love. You told me that you would love me no matter what. That we would always be together. That you loved me more than you could comprehend, more than words could express. That you were mine forever. The only girl in your eyes. I said the same, and I spoke the truth. I loved you. We didn't text for days because you didn't have wifi. I just came home from a party and found that you finally texted me. I was happy but when I read your text, my heart shattered. Tears rolled down my face as I tried to finish reading. You lied to me. My heart is broken. The pain is excruciating. This is the text that you sent :"I hope this doesn't hurt you but we need to break up I realized while I was gone when school starts I'm not going to be able to talk to you at all and I don't want you to be in a relationship that's not going anywhere, and I feel like I'd b using u if I stayed with you I'm sooooo sorry and I hope there's no hard feelings I hope we can still be friends love you kaliko Gbye". It hurt. So much. I've waited for you for two years and then I finally got to be yours. You told me that you loved me, you told me that we would be together forever no matter what! You lied. You lied. We'll now my heart is broken. I left out a bunch of details but this was hard to write. Sorry for any grammatical or punctuational errors.

My words cannot fully express how I feel about you. You are the only boy that has given me butterflies by just hearing your voice. The day I first met you, it was the best day of my #life. As soon as I heard your voice it sent sparks though my body and impulsed me to find you. But I moved and couldn't forget you. It hurt me so much that I couldn't see you. It broke my heart and the pain was just excruciating. I never went a day without thinking about you, did you think of me as much as I though o you? ~ unfinished thought