Worst Doc Appt As i drive to the doctors office alone, while my husband stays home its just another appt we said. Thoughts racing through my head, is going to be another boy or maybe a girl? I just cant wait to hear its little heart beat for the first time. As i sit in the waiting room playing candy crush i hear my name i walk to the back and do the usual procedures, finally the nurse gets there with the doppler ready to hear my babys heart. I was anxious to hear, i see her struggle finding the babys heart i asked "is it hiding?" And she says this is very normal we will just get the ultrasound machine. My doctor walks in, as i am now a little worried reasures me this is very normal. Finally the camara is in i see a little egg that hasnt grown from the last time i saw it, no heart beat... I look at the doctors face as she keeps looking and looking. I knew .. She didnt want to tell me she finally said she didnt see a heart beat anymore. My heart sunk to my stomach i had no words just tears. I hated that i was there alone i never thought this would happen. My heart goes to all the moms out there who have lost because now i know how much it really hurts.
