Stuttering Feelings "I h-hope you can m-m-make it." He shyly lowered his head, trying to hide the heat on his cheeks. His fear heightened each second she didn't respond and he nervously played with his fingers. As a stutterer, he had grown accustomed to rejection but oddly enough, he feared rejection from her the most. Maybe it was because she always accepted him and told him that it was alright, maybe because she was the only one who really ever understood him first.  He was just a fool in love, doing whatever his heart commands.  Not able to put up with the silence anymore, he sneaked a glance at her only to be devastated as she was fast asleep. He slapped himself on the cheek and muttered a few curses, feeling ashamed of himself. Wondering what he should do, he turned and looked at her. She looked like an angel in his eyes.  An innocent beauty sleeping right in front of him. He sighed as he took in her beauty and softly smiled to himself. He gently rested her head onto his shoulder for a maximized forty winks. His heart leaped at that moment as he confirmed that his feelings were real. Oh boy..

Please Be Happy She's everything i'm not and more. I'm not as pretty as she is, nor am i a great person. In fact, i'm a horrible person. And even i would pick her over myself anyday. So i understand him, why he picked her. I'm lacking in many ways, and i don't have it all together there. I can't even give a proper response when he asks me a question. My personality is dull, and boring to many. People get tired of me easily. And i don't blame them for it.  So i understand and i support his decision. It's probably gonna hurt a lot, no, it already hurts a lot, but it'll help me rid myself of these burdensome feelings. I keep feeling apologetic for having these feelings for him when it's impossible and totally out of line. I'm apologetic that it's just unspecial me. So i'll try my best, to get rid of my feelings the sooner the better. Because it's too much of a burden for him who can't like back.  In time, i know it'll be alright. Or at least, i hope so. Feelings change all the time don't they? My feelings will go away in time. Well, hopefully. And then i'll leave, silently and swiftly. I bet he won't even notice. But it's alright, it's not like anyone ever did in the first place. When that time comes, i hope i'll be able to leave without looking back. Because looking back would only make it a lot harder to leave. And then without a goodbye, i'll go away. But for now, i'll stay at my place and retreat slowly in time.  And i pray that he'll be twice as happy.