Finished. I scare people with the way I think. And that makes me bitter. I am falling apart again. But this time I'll have them breathing down my neck, trying to keep me safe and every time I hurt me I hurt them. I wonder if I'm just tired. If I'm not making sense. I wonder if God has a plan for me. And all I need to do is give in. I want a safe fortress. I don't want to be useless again. It's all starting to come back to me. All of it. All of the misery and useless feelings. I'm so ungrateful for what I have. I'm hurting my family. I'm hurting people. I'm over acting. And yet it scares me too much to calm down.
❄ Hush, little baby, don't say a word. Mama's gonna buy you a mockingbird And if that mockingbird won't sing, Mama's gonna buy you a diamond ring And if that diamond ring turns brass, Mama's gonna buy you a looking glass And if that looking glass gets broke, Mama's gonna buy you a billy goat And if that billy goat won't pull, Mama's gonna buy you a cart and bull And if that cart and bull turn over, Mama's going to buy you a dog named Rover. And if that dog named Rover won't bark, Mama's going to buy you a horse and cart. And if that horse and cart fall down, You'll still be the sweetest little baby in town.