My First Punishment Assignment I was feeling down and quite insignificant so I told Sir, expecting to be comforted, as a girlfriend might be. How wrong was I. Sorry Sir, you're right, I was being needy. I'm quite sure I've learnt my lesson, no double texts, etc.. I'm just not sure how I stop feeling down though. Anyway, my punishment for being needy is a 2000 word story on our first meeting. I did ask to be punished by writing lines, to reinforce some positive thoughts in my mind, but that was turned down.. Now I am quite into the story and happily writing away but when it comes to posting I know I'll be in an awful place, fear of failure is a big part of my #life, I hate to not do well, so I don't even try. Now I'm being forced to. I do see the good in Sir for this, but am aware it could easily backfire. (2am 3.4.13)

2.4.13 A pretty uneventful day in the normal scheme of things. I showered and got rid of the knots in my bird nest of hair (bit of background, been through some hard times this year so far and have struggled with taking care of myself, along with other things, hence the near dreadlock mess, which has since been tamed - I hope my mind follows suit..well, maybe not completely..!) Slightly mad at Sir earlier, for not having time to read my posts, but having time to read others. That did sting a little to be honest.. Anyway, underneath the everyday, I have been consumed with anticipation for my rules.. Since having them I have written them out in short and rearranged them into daily, weekly, other and a one off to do list. I have also written some questions for when the laptop is free as I seek clarification. I am eager to write my rules out but need to know a couple of things first.. Also, I have purple, erm, well, where the clip went.. as I am very turned on. I say this as obvious information, I am not asking Sir. I know I must not ask. I do find it embarrassing to talk of some things and did find a corner of the Internet where there are many blogs like this..did suggest this area to Master but it seems he would rather I was more publicly visible. I think he knows it makes me feel awkward at times.

Food Diary 2.4.13 Porridge. Orange juice. 6pm broccoli, carrot batons, peas, swede mash, quorn slice and potatoes. 10.30pm 4 mini eggs 5/5

11.45pm 1.4.13 Five minutes in to my task and I'm already trying to distract myself. Could not find any pegs (crazy I know) but found a mini bulldog clip which is mostly see through. Hurts more than I thought and am searching online for proper clamps, just a shame they won't be instant delivery. Sir did say crocodile clips but I'm sure he'll be happy with my purchase. If not, I will get what he desires. 50 minutes left on the right side. Feels like it's sliding off but it isn't, just the blood rush or not. Dammit, crazy mix if emotions. Sir you will have a video clip in your email in the morning of it coming off xxx "00.17 Sir just to let you know, this has never hurt so much and I am rocking with the pain to cope 0.31 having a break as pain so bad. Total time will still be an hour each. Don't worry Sir, your good girl won't go back to bad, unless you tell her to

Today's Bonus! I am in a crazy bad mood for no reason I can tell. However I am sure my task will change this. I must play and make myself sensitive. Then attach two clothes pegs (as substitute for crocodile clips). They must stay there for an hour. I haven't decided if I will lie on my back, or stay sat up. Indecisive silly thing. I am quite spoilt for choice in regards to peg angles also will be the least painful possible as it has to be an hour..