HOH - C8 Hiding Our Hurt Chapter 8 ~~~ I laughed so hard I literally fell on the floor I wasn't angry any more. "You have a boner!" Jamie turned bright red and walked into his room. I sat there crying with laughter. *** About half an hour later when I eventually calmed down I sat on the sofa and checked the time. I knew that I was going to go to Starbucks at 5pm, to meet this mystery person and find out what they want. "Jamie, can you drop me off at Starbucks?" I shouted to the other room whilst watching the news. Jamie quietly came out of his room and say next to me. "Uh Sure... And Sorry..." Jamie went bright red again and I started laughing. "Oh Man.... You don't get out much!" I laughed and smiled a real smile. "Your... hot. Okay?" Jamie went as bright red as a tomato and I spat my drink out everywhere. "Yeah whatever!" I playfully punched Jamie and walked into the kitchen. "I should clean all that up..." I said motioning towards the spilt Cola. Jamie smiled still embarrassed and got out his car keys. "Why are you going Starbucks?" I had completely forgot about the night before and let him know. "Someone wants to meet me." Jamie gave me a concerned look. "Your coming back after right? Walking back won't be too hard?" I smiled. "I'll be fine." Jamie nodded and pinned his number into my mobile. "Promise me to come back. I'm not finished. Ring me if your lost." Jamie gave me a half hearted smile and I sighed. Finally feeling a little less happy. "Whatever J." Jamie grabbed my arm. "Promise me." His eyes went stony cold again. The sort of icy look scared me and I nodded to avoid having to stare into them any longer. *** This chapter sucks.

HOH - C7 Hiding Our Hurt Chapter 7 ~~~ I stood in the shower an cleansed myself of all feelings for Jamie. I couldn't let him get to me. I used everything that was left of the shower gel and all of his shampoo. He had no conditioner so I had to survive without some till I got to a hotel. I got out of the shower and attempted to find a towel but I couldn't find one anywhere. I gathered my stuff and decided to get in my clothes there. I slipped on my jeans when someone started to open the door which happened to have no lock, I felt around trying to find my sweater to quickly throw on when Jamie walked in. "AH FUCK!" Jamie immediately walked out and slammed the door. I was a little pisses but decided to think nothing of it and tried to find my sweater. I could find it anywhere. I slipped on my bra and looked all over the rather large bathroom for it. I decided to ask Jamie. I opened the door a crack and just put my head round, hiding the rest of my body. "Jamie, where's my sweater!?" Jamie appeared from around the corner, he was blushing rather madly an was hiding himself. "What...........?" I looked at Jamie rather puzzled as he hid away. "You hid my sweater didn't you!?" I got really pissed by now and wasnt bothered that I was half dressed. I ran out and punched Jamie in the arm, when he turned away from me. "Huh, What's going on J?" It was the first time I called him J... I found it weird, that I had gotten him a nickname already. "Oh Fuck." I had a sudden realisation of what was going on. I walked straight past Jamie and into the bedroom and took one of his jumpers and on my way out I walked last him again. Yet again facing away from me. "Jamie. Turn towards me..." I laughed really hard by now. "No." "Jamie... comon!" Jamie insisted he stayed facing away from me. "Jamie. Turn around." My voice went stern now. "Stay one more night and I will turn around." I crossed my fingers behind my back and laughed a bit. I knew what was coming. "Okay, Turn around..." Jamie turned around to reveal what I thought was going on. *** { I haven't really wrote like this before, but it is a bit rude the next chapter, but I hope that there will be no more rude chapters, after that.}

HOH - C6 Hiding Our Hurt Chapter 6 ~~~ I woke up with of the worst headaches ever and my stomach pounded. I soaked in my surroundings and came to reality. I sat up as my back ached from the uncomfortable bed and looked around. I noticed Jamie snoring next to me and I immediately woke up and punched him. "You fucking pervert! What the fuck do you think your doing?" Jamie rolled over and fell out the bed only in his boxers. He looked alarmed and started stuttering. "Uh. Uh... Its my bed... W-where was I s- supposed to sleep?" My fury grew. "The sofa maybe!? You didn't molest me in my sleep!?" Jamie looked really hurt and sighed. "No. I'm not a rapist. I just get angry, and I do care as well. I may be 24, but I'm not going to fucking molest you." Jamie stood up and walked out of the room. I sighed and lead back down, my head pounding even more than it did before. After an hour or so I got up and found a hoodi of Jamie's and put it on. It was about 3 sizes too big and covered me up quite well. I then left the room and say on the sofa again. I could tell that Jamie was still angry by the way he ignored me as he cooked his eggs. "Morning Grumpy." Jamie ignored me still and put the eggs onto a plate, also with Bacon and some beans. He came into the front room and passed me a plate, then sat on his chair. Still ignoring me. "Jamie, Look I'm sorr- This is good food...!" I chewed it down and Jamie couldn't help but laugh at my lack of table manners. "My God... You can clean that up!" I smiled a little kind of glad that Jamie wasn't ignoring me. "What do you want to do today then gorgeous?" My smile left my face straight away. "Today I'm leaving..." Jamie looked upset, and continued to eat silently. "Oh. Thought you might of changed your mind..." I ignored Jamie's hint and put the plate onto the table and walked into the bathroom to get yet another shower. ***

HOH - C5 Hiding Our Hurt Chapter 5 ~~~ I walked and walked. "Ronnie, Wait!" I felt the tight grip on my arm once again. "Fuck off!" "Your coming back. To at least stay the night!! Please, Ronnie! For me..." I turned around and started walking back down the alley. "One night, Just please try not to talk to me." Jamie nodded once again, and I could feel him staring very closely at me as I walked I front towards his flat. I walked back into the dingy flat ad Deja Vu overcame me. I placed my bag on the floor and pulled my hair out of its grip and let it down. "What did I do?" I heard Jamie say as he closed the front door. "I let you too close to me. My heart." Jamie looked puzzled and sat next to me again. "Wait, What?" I sighed and put my hand to my head. "I let myself love you for maybe a second or two. Okay!? I honestly cannot do that. I promised myself. Just try stay away. Please." Jamie laughed and placed a hand on my arm. "Stay away from you? Are you insane?" I pushed his hand off of me. "I'm schizophrenic. So yes, I am a little insane. But I'm deadly serious." I stated right into Jamie's eyes. Now turning ice cold as I spoke. "Stay away from me Jamie." To my surprise. Jamie still didn't move. He just stared right into me. As if he was trying to tell me something by staring right at me. I broke eye contact first and looked down. Jamie immediately used his hand to lift my head up so we was making eye contact once again. "what!?" Jamie continued to stare and I stared back. For maybe ten seconds or so. Then I glanced at the door. "Never." Jamie smashed his lips against mine and kissed me passionately. I didn't want to break away, for the kiss was enchanting. But I knew I had to. I pulled away after maybe five seconds and stood up. "I'm leaving. First thing tomorrow. Don't try to find me." I walked down the hallway and into a bedroom and dived onto a bed, still in my clothes. I glimpsed out of the door and into the hallway to make sure Jamie was watching, then I kicked my shoes and jeans off, and pulled ny shirt over my head. I got under the covers of the lumpy bed and fell asleep. ***

HOH - C4 Hiding Our Hurt Chapter 4 ~~~ When the song ended it changed to a Goo Goo Dolla song, Iris. I also got emotional when this song came on, it reminded me of my past. Jamie noticed the change in my mood and stood in front of me. "What's your name?" I looked up and for a quick second I looked into those green eyes of his. I immediately glanced back down. "Ronnie." Jamie grabbed both my hands and I surprisingly didn't pull them away. "Well Ronnie, May I ask you to dance?" I nodded and smiled and looked into his eyes again, this time without looking back down. I surprisingly trusted him for a few minutes, let him hold me like I never let anyone hold me. I rested my head on his shoulder and cried. Only quietly, only a few tears. I didn't want him to see me or hear me. Jamie held my waist and kept me close, I could even feel his breath on my neck. I was insane to let him do this. "I pulled my head away from his shoulder and looked into his eyes, forgetting that mine where red rimmed. He lifted a hand from my waist and wiped my tear. No questions asked, he just wiped it and put my head back onto his shoulder, then continued dancing. At that moment I pulled him a litte closer. I had never felt so complete. When the song finished, Jamie lifted his hands from my waist and put one on each side of my neck. My senses came back then and I pushed his hands away. "The fuck...." I glanced at his eyes and he looked a little hurt. "I'm gonna go." I grabbed my iPod off the table and my bag off the floor. I rushed to the door before Jamie could object and opened it. I felt my arm being gripped tightly again. "Why?" Jamie looked really hurt now. He seemed like such a softie compared to the abuse he gave me before. "I have let you too close than I should of." I shook off his grip and slammed the door, the walked down the alley in the rain. *** Soooo?