Torrent Chaos And Stream Soothing I've changed. My appearance has changed.. My attitude.. Not so much. But despite this... My feelings have gotten stronger.. They erupt at times.. Even more do when I think about you. They cascade over me and drown me in their mixed up chaos. I feel like a single drop of water.. Flowing through a huge lake... A lake that has currents of chaos and tiny streams of calm that lead off it.. But always curve back and wash into the lake again.. Everytime I think of you.. It is in the chaos.. I don't know why.. It always seems that when I am calm.. I think of other things and not of you.. I think,based on what I just said, that you drive me crazy.. You drive me into a crazed love that is extreemly hard to stop.. I wash into chaos when I think of you.. I drift into a stream when I calm down.. And yet... You are the one who calms me down.. You make me insane.. Then you instill calmness.. How you do it I'll never know.. How you can drive someone insane.... Then calm them.. You are truly skilled.

Unaproachable As I stand chatting with my friends... You walk up and start talking with your friends about ....oh.... mabye 10 feet away.... And what do I do? I stand there and ignore you... I don't notice you.... Or so it appears.... In the inside I am dying to talk to you and wish I would appear interested in you!.... But on the outside..... I look so uninterested in you ..... You look away and talk to your friends... As I talk to mine.... How sad and pathetic can I get?! You are right in front of me! Why can't I just walk up to you and start chatting with you?! Is it that hard for me to chat?! I do it all the time with my friends! Why is it so difficult for me to talk to you?… I think it's because you mean something to me.. I think that I'm too nervous to talk because I don't want to mess up... I wish I could aproach you... Why can't I?!.....

Hopeless Beautiful Memories As I walk to my home, I reflect on what happened... I saw you.. You saw me..... To think you actually saw me on purpose.... It blows my mind.... I looked at you with a yearning to just stand there watching you.... However you just looked, more like a glance... Then walked away as if nothing special happened.... Though it was a mear second or two... I was happy to see you.... You probably will go home and forget it... I, on the other hand, will NEVER forget it... I will treasure it and keep it close to my heart.... Will you ever do the same?

Alone Alone. Probably one of the worst human emotions.... You never feel you are in the right place..... You never feel at home... It gets worse… then you see him…… You see him walking with his friends chatting and laughing like there's nothing wrong at all..... He walks by you… time slows down… you watch out of the corner of your eye… As time seems to slow to almost a stop, you start to imagine things …You imagine him looking at you... You look deep into his eyes.... And he looks deep into yours… he pulls you close and comforts you… you pull away… he grabs you then kisses you.... Right at that moment, you suddenly snap back to reality.... And realize.. It was just your imagination… your head cruelly playing tricks on you…… And then you feel even more alone... You can never look at him… he never looks at you anyway, so it hurts you to even think of him looking at you..... Will he ever see me? Why is he so ignorant of my feelings? How can he be so happy when I am so..... Alone.

Destroyed Heart My heart ripps itself apart… tearing and ripping everything around it.... Not only does it hurt my soul… it actually physically hurts me… My heart… in pieces… shredded, torn, ripped, in slivers of what it was… Can you guess who made my so injured? Yeah… that's right… Y....O...U.