So................ Its been a while since I wrote my thoughts Mainly because I am reconfiguring myself After our last meeting. Topsy turvy Back to front Close to bitter and twisted Is what I feel. My admiration translated into words of love Took me on a bizarre ride to the far side of its hills and mountains Each step manifested as a thought Brought me closer Towards you and Further away from my past What looked like the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow was A desert mirage Shocking but not surprising My old mental self returns Reminding me " I told you so!" Such an emotional high Is followed by a deep low The swing of the pendulum... What have I learned? That it is possible to love again.... That I can love again But just not you.... Right now...