Loneliness They come and they go. One day you live in an empty house. The next day it's full. Family, friends, laughter; happy things. Their voices bringing back old memories, and making new ones. But then they leave, and you're in an empty house again. Alone. All alone. The silence, the loneliness, the #depression that was briefly suppressed by joy, it all comes back and swallows you. Suddenly the wind outside is louder, because their voices are gone, all that's left are echo's of laughter here and there. You close your eyes, trying to find a happy moment and you cling to it with all your strength, and when you lose it and start to slip, then the next thing you know you're falling. You dig deep down inside, looking for anything that could pull you up. Sometimes it's their right away, and sometimes it's not, and you're left falling for days at a time.

Unum Oppositorum Her stare was as cold as ice, even though her eyes were red. Her soul was opaque, but inside it burned more fire than hell contained. Although she said nothing at all, she spoke the loudest. Her mind seemed vacuous, but it possessed more thoughts and intelligence than the stars held by the universe. Who is she? She is me. I am her. We are one. We are none. We are all. What do we hold? Everything and nothing. Fear and joy are one inside us. What are we? We are, and we are not. Our end is our beginning, and our beginning? Well, our beginning is our end.

Hiding In The Shadows Up in flames, there goes your dreams. Wave to them! One last farewell. The bittersweet addiction of hate slowly takes you over. A fire of rage starts to build up inside, formed from an ember of desire and longing. When you thought the journey was over, a new one began. You walk along a broken highway, invisible to the people passing by. Sidetracked into a forest, a whisper chanting your name. The branches above make it dark and the the woods with shadows, but shadows never bothered you, they seemed to comfort you in a way the sun never could. You walk straight, but the whisper is all around you, making it impossible to pin point it's location. The shadows begin to darken as the trees around you thicken. You walk for hours, the path gets harder. No longer sure the time of day, or night for that matter, for the growth around you is just so thick. You stop, for the darkest shadow is right in front of you, and it sounds like the whisper is coming from it. You walk forward into it, for the calling is irresistible. And what you find made everything worth while. For there, hiding in the shadows all along, was Hope. Sometimes #life takes us through the darkest shadows because it knows that's where Hope hides, waiting to be found.

Dear Mom I dare not pause, for when I do I feel the absence of your presence. I hear the lack of your voice and laughter. I see the loss of your beauty, your face, your smile; your soul. I think of the missing memories, the words you have spoken fading in my mind, the sight of you when I was a child, and the memories I'll never get to have. The sight of your suffering and pain, and you baring it all with a smile. My heart aches for you, how can I move on? I try to distract myself with puzzles and mind games, pondering riddles and singing. Reading the books you read, wondering how the words effected your mind. I bury myself with business, trying not to sell my soul to sorrow. Waking up from bad dreams knowing I can't find comfort in your arms hurts beyond words and feelings. Wishing for the old days brings tears. Your words helped to guide me and brought comfort, but now they start to fade. Soldiering on can't be my #life forever, but I see no light in this dark tunnel. #life is not fair, I had you the least. I had so many words formed, but now they have ceased. Loss and grief bring pain and defeat, so I dare not pause, nor stop and think.

Dear Mary Mary don't cry, you tried your best, though it wasn't enough. Don't walk away from me, I swear I'm not angry. You can yell at me all you want, I'll still be here forever. It was out of your hands, you did all you could, ok? Come here, I'll hold you. Let me dry your tears darling. Mary, it's ok to be weak, without weakness there is no strength. Don't turn away, I'm not disappointed in you. There is no need for shame my love, your actions were not wrong. Let out your anger, I will listen. Tell me your fears, I will reassure you. Tell me of your sorrows, and I will comfort you. Mary, don't wish away your #life! There is so much that you can do, you have such a great purpose! Move along now, don't let this hold you back. Look up at me, am I speaking lies? Dearest One, don't let this drag you down! Your heart aches now, but healing will come, as surely as my name is love, so shall healing come.